My life is cringy carry on with caution

17 Drop the dagger and laugh at the blood on your hands, Dad.

Have you heard of the movie In the name of the father ? I just watched it and honestly snapped at my mom because that movie pissed me off it reminded me of our battles in court and she started talking about the fucking bunk beds. I said something along the lines of what does it matter if our lives are going to be just as shit, but in spanish.

Afterwards obviously we got in an argument. (Rant) started saying this stuff about being ungrateful and not dealing with it. Dude she couldn't be more wrong about me. Makes me wonder if she even tries to know me youknow.

(Lik if i was me her arguing with myself i would say like you're so apathetic and insecure you're never going to be happy that would have been real)

Exhibit A) If i was ungrateful i would always be complaining about money and swear in the name of the father i have never complained about having a bigger house or an iphone or whatever. I always say thankyou for everything jfc did you not educate me  i thought you were there mom.

Exhibit B) If i wasn't "dealing" with our problems i would be cutting, commiting suicide, taking drugs, running away. I havent even been super duper depressed in the past few months. She' tellin' me i'm not dealing?

This is the characteristic i loath the most about my mom because i feel like i cant tell her anything. When i do she gets very angry. She feels like i'm blaming her for what is happening to me. For ex so anybody reading this can get the jist. I went out to a party one night and fell BRUTALLY like flesh scraped on the sidewalk bleeding. It was on my knees so i couldnt walk that well but i refused to menttion the pain or the weird color on my scabs or even show them. Until it was healing so i did and she started attacking me saying that she will never let me go to a party again that there where people so much older than me there (nottrue), that i need to stop asking for a cell phone because she cant aford one atm. When all i did was show her the scrape.

And i told her about exhibit A and B but it didnt get me anywhere with her.

I hate how she's so topsy turvy one second this the next something else 0-100. No boundries no rules

Like i snap 1 godamn time how does she expect me to not be salty most of the ddamn time when we're all fudging fighting all the time. How does she not expect me not to be salty about being in mexico and all the topics that revolve around it. I am trying to get over it!! But it is harddddddd.

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Anyways have a nice day smell the fresh air take a gander at this nice image of chibi levi cleaning while giving a view of the tooch. Irl i am Levi i am not even joking i like to think i am alot like frank too because i relate so much to him on his tweets and everything but i simply do not literaly know him so i cantsay .

Till next time spirits