Your Touch

Chapter 37

Chapter 37 (Zayn’s P.O.V.)

                I could hear Louis and Eleanor fighting next door. I even heard what sounded like someone getting slapped in the face. Moments after, I heard the front door slam. I figured it was El because Louis never got that mad. It was barely a minute later that I heard the front door slam again.

                I sighed, trying to forget the fight. I failed, because it only made me think of my own fight with Perrie and the choice that she had given me. I had to decide: her or Sabrina. I stared at my phone. I had decided that I was going to choose today. There was no way that I could go through another day of this thinking and feeling torn. I had to make a decision so I could feel whole again.

                “Hey Zayn, you awake yet?” I heard Niall’s voice from the door. “Breakfast is ready.”

                I laid still, acting as if I was asleep. It worked, because he left the room and shut the door behind him. I could hear him talking to someone else as his footsteps faded away.

                I felt bad for doing that to the guys, but I needed to be alone. I needed to think. I turned and growled into my pillow. I really hated this.

                ‘Calm down.’ I told myself, ‘Think clearly.’

                That was so easier said than done, but it was what I needed to do. I took a few deep breaths as I rolled over onto my back. I stared at the ceiling for a bit, just with an empty mind. I took in one more deep breath, deciding now was as good a time as any to start this thinking process.

                First, I thought about Perrie. I still remember the day we met, and how we hit it off almost immediately. She had the same dream as me, and she was getting to live it too. It just seemed so special. I just seemed as if we were meant for each other. Even when we had a rough patch, we always managed to pull through. We had been rocked many times, especially with the paparazzi following our every moves. It made our lives hard and our lives together harder, but we always held on a got through it.

                Then, I thought about Sabrina. I hadn’t even known her for two months, but she was an amazing person. I loved to hang out with her and we got along really well. She was so normal, but crazy at the same time it almost didn’t make sense. I like it though, that was want made her stand out. She had a cool sense of humor too. And her smile, it lit up any room and her laugh was extremely contagious. I remember the night that we all planned to get Hannah and Liam to talk again, she was the one who suggested the arcade. She knew that we would need to give them space, so she picked somewhere we all could hang out and have fun. That is what Sabrina was about, having fun with her friends.

                I rubbed my face as I sighed. “I hate this.”

                I felt as if I was having to choose between two of the biggest parts of life, deciding which to keep and which to tell goodbye. I didn’t really want to tell either of them goodbye. I had so many good memories with the both of them.

                ‘Choose your song carefully.’ I thought as I closed my eyes. I took another deep breath before getting lost in my thoughts. That was when I made my decision.

                I grabbed my phone and sent a text to her. I rolled from bed and got dressed. When I grabbed my phone, I saw that she had said that she could meet up with me. A smile crossed my face as I turned and left.