Baby On Board

Girl Meets Leaving

30 weeks pregnant

Its been 5 weeks since my baby shower and really nothing eventful has happened other than I keep getting bigger and bigger everyday. I think Lucas is getting more stressed and nervous about the baby because he seems to be spending more time with his friends then helping me prepare for the baby. I know he wants to have fun before she comes but I dont think hes putting our baby as his number one priority.

Today we both planned to start setting up the nursery but Lucas called from his friends saying he had other plans to hang out with them. I'm starting to get really nervous that Lucas doesnt care about the baby anymore..

It was almost 11 pm when Lucas finally came home.  I was sitting on the living room couch waiting for him.

"Maya what are you doing up? You should be asleep." Lucas said sitting down next to me.

"Its hard to sleep when you have so many things running through your mind." I said playing with my fingers.

"Maya whats wrong?" He asked

"Lucas... I just feel like your never here anymore and that you don't care about this baby or me." I said sadly and nervously.

"Maya... I'm just trying to have a little fun before the baby gets here. I'm still a teenager and I still want to be a teenager." He said

"Lucas, I understand that but I just dont think thats fair. I dont get to be a teenager anymore. I can barely get up and walk let alone leave house and hang out with my friends. Every waking minute I am in this house preparing for our baby. My dad built the crib, which you said you would do. I started the painting, which you said you would do too. But you didnt do either of those because your too busy having fun." I said with tears welling in my eyes.

"Maya if your trying to get an apology out of me for going out with my friends then your not going to get one. You arent in charge of me and you cant tell me what to do."

"You just dont understand. Or maybe I dont understand how you could go out knowing you have a baby coming in less than 3 months and we have nothing done. We have a crib. Thats it. I'm just saying that I need you here to help me. I can't do it alone." I said crying

"Maya I think you need a break. Get out of the house and see your friends."

"Lucas I can't just leave. You dont understand how much pain I am in. My back, my feet, everything constantly hurts because this baby is taking over my body. Plus the stares I get from people when I go out is embarrassing. Everyone stares at my stomach. Probably thinking about how much of a slut I am. Lucas all I'm asking is that you start helping me out." I said pleading
There was silence between us that really made me think that Lucas doesnt want to be here with me.

"Lucas, I cant make you do anything. I guess its clear now to see that you never wanted this baby."

"Maya of course I never wanted this baby! I'm 18 and I'm going to be a father. I had my whole life ahead of me but now I'm stuck here with you buying baby clothes. This isnt what I planned my life to be like."

"And you think this is what I wanted. Do you think I wanted to get pregnant at 17? Honestly Lucas if this isnt what you want and you feel like your stuck here with me then you can just leave."

He stood up and grabbed his coat as he put it on I heard him mumble "bitch"

"What did you just say?" I asked standing up

"Nothing, nothing" He said

"I mean if your gonna call me a bitch you might as well just say it so I can hear."

"Well you heard me didnt you? God sometimes I just wanna go."

"Then Go!" I yelled with tears streaming down my cheeks. The door slammed as Lucas walked out and I broke into tears. My dad is away on a business trip so I was all alone. I walked back into the bedroom Lucas and I had previously shared and climbed into bed. I cried myself to sleep.

~Next Morning~

School today.. I'm trying to go to school for as long as I can before the baby is born so I wont be far behind. As I started to get ready I wondered if Lucas would show up today. I checked my phone again to see if I had heard anything from him but I hadnt. I got dressed and did my hair and makeup as always but soon realized as I was about to leave that I didnt have a ride. I have a car but I'm getting so big its hard for me to fit behind the wheel and be comfortable. I called Riley and asked of she would give me a ride. Of course she said yes but she asked alot of questions about Lucas not driving me and I said I would explain later.

About 15 minutes later Riley was at my house and I hopped in the car with her.

"So wheres Lucas?" She asked

"Um I'm not really sure. We got into this big fight last night and I told him if he wants to leave then he can leave. So he left." I said

"Well do you know if he's coming back?"

"I don't know. I hope so just because I grew up without a dad and I really don't want our daughter to have to go through that. I want her to think nothing but the best of her father. I really don't care if Lucas doesnt ever want to see me again I just hope us fighting wont affect his relationship with her." By this point I am balling and we have just pulled into the school parking lot. Riley wiped my eyes and hugged. After I was better we walked into school.

I sat through all of my classes not seeing Lucas all day but now it is time for Mr.Mathews class. I walked in and took my seat next to Riley. I looked to the desk behind me to see that Lucas wasnt there. I checked my phone one last time before class started and still have not heard from Lucas. It is clear to me now that he probably wont come back and I will have to raise our daughter alone.