Falling

Part 20

There was a knock on the door. Taylor already know who it was. Cara called her earlier to say she's in New York.

She open it and there she was, grinning at her. They hugged and went straight to the living room.

"Im famish!" said Cara, throwing her black leather backpack on the floor as she jump on her cream colored couch.

Taylor shake her head, putting down a tray of tea on the table.

"Oh wow," Cara said.

"What?" asked Taylor.

"You americans, you see a british person and expect her to drink tea. How typical." said Cara rolling her eyes.

Taylor laughs, "Said the girl who brought me an In and Out burger from a pop up store in London."

Cara smirks. "Seriously Tay, is there a beer in your fridge?"

"No. For godsake Cara, its half an hour before noon."

"Erggg, what good are you." said Cara, her legs on the table.

Taylor grab a throw pillow beside her and hit Cara in the face. They were laughing hysterically, but Cara ended up sipping a cup of tea.

"So, are you going to the surprise party?" asked Cara. Taylor gave her friend a questioning look.

"What party?"

"Lilys! Its a surprise party Karlie organized for tomorrow. Thats why Im here!"

"Oh," said Taylor, trying to hide her disappointment. So that was it. Reality hitting her hard, that she's out of Karlie's life. All this time she thought it wouldnt hurt that much. With the time given of them being apart. But she was not ready, she doesnt think she's ever gonna be ready. It felt like someone is choking her neck, like air has lost all its ability to get out of her lungs.

"She didnt tell you?" she heard Cara.

She couldnt say a word. Shes afraid that if she would, she'll breakdown. Cara doesnt know anything. So she just grab the remote and pretended to scan the channels.

But Cara stood up and kneel down infront of her. Seeing her there, staring at her breaks all her control. Tears were now continuously flowing from her eyes. She felt Cara pulling her closely to her chest, with that she let go. Telling her everything between her sobs.

When she was done, she took the glass of water Cara handed to her.

"You love her so much Tay, and I know why you chose not to be with her.But I just dont understand why love isnt good enough, why it isnt more than enough than opinions of others and what they may think of you." said Cara.

"Because I work hard for this, for where I am now. This is my dream, this is what I've wished to be." Taylor said. But hearing those words outloud coming from her mouth made her feel like it was not real. Like something has change.

"But are you happy now?" ask Cara. Five words. Five simple words, formed in a question that made her doubt every decisions she has made.

No, she was not. She no longer am.