Memories |n.h | au

• Chapter 20

Lucy's pov

It's been around an hour since we got back from our walk earlier. I had been trying to avoid having to talk to him but I'm starting to realize it has to be done.

Not because I want to start an argument but because being with him like nothing happened isn't fair to either of us.

"Why is it so hard for you to talk to me like you used to? " He asked. His question caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting it.

I sat there for a moment trying to get my thoughts together.

"Answer me! " He demanded.

"Because Niall everytime I needed you, when I needed one of your stupid hugs that always made me feel better when I had a rough day." I let out a small chuckle, trying to hold back my tears.

"All our memories would come back but you never did.!" I continued, almost yelling at him.

It's ironic how he's demanding answer's from me yet I still don't know why it was so easy for him to tell me not to talk him anymore. Let alone him tell me why he left over a year ago.

He stayed silent before he tried to apologize for his outburst.

"No. You can't just mess something up and apologize for it right after. That's not fair. " I shook my head.

He looked hurt but all of this needs to be said. It's now or never.

"No listen to me. I'm sorry for demanding answer's from you. I'm sorry for telling you not to talk to me anymore and I'm sorry for practically kidnapping you. " He rambled.

I stared at him in silence my breath becoming more heavy by the second.

"Why? " I asked. He had a look of confusion so I explained what I meant.

"Why did you not want to talk anymore? Why did you act like such an asshole that day? " I added. His silence only made me want an explanation even more.

"Well? If I remember correctly you're the one that wanted to talk. Wasnt that the whole point of this? " I reminded him waving my hands around.

"I-I can't tell you why I said that. Just know that I regret it so so much cupcake. " he tried reasoning.

"Don't call me that." I said. He let out a chuckle but stopped when I glared at him.

"Is this all just game to you? " I questioned him.

"No,what? No of course not." He shook his head.

"Than why do you act like it is? " I asked.

"One day it's like we don't have a history its like you never left and the next day you act like you don't know me. " I elaborated.

I was really trying not to cry. I didn't want to look defeated especially not in front of him.

"You can't put all of this on me" He told me his voice turning cold and distant.

"What about you huh? " He started, stopping to take a breath.

"You and Dylan? ." he asked.

"What are you talking about? " I replied.

"Don't act like you don't know what I'm talking about. You've been walking around with him and dancing with him as if you guy's were a thing. " He stated. His feet moving towards me with every word he spoke.

"Do you have any idea how much that hurts me.? " He asked. He now had me pinned against the wall with one hand on the side of my head and the other resting on my waist.

"Yes. I do. Wanna why? because you've been doing the exact same thing with every girl that crosses your path! " I yelled at him.
I pushed him off of me and took a few steps back.

"You seriously think that low of me? You think I'll be here with you if I were a thing with Dylan? " I scoffed. He stayed silent confirming my question.

At this point tears were flowing from my eyes like that's the only they knew how to do.

"I can't believe you. " I chocked out. I took a few steps back, and reached over for my purse.

He just stood there watching my every move with his chest rising and falling heavily.

I looked at him one last time as I reached for the door handle and walked out.

"Cupcake wait. " Was the last thing I heard him say.

As soon as I stepped outside I ran. Unaware of my surroundings and with tears in my eyes.

Once I was out of sight I slowed down and began walking and walking and walking until my feet got tired. Niall kept ringing my phone but of course I ignored all of his calls.

I found an empty spot in the middle of a field full of trees. I took a seat by one of the tree's and rested my head against it.
I hadn't realized that my head was beginning to hurt also how cold it was.

My phone vibrated in my hand but this time it wasn't a call it was a text still from Niall. I cleared it off my screen not even bothering to read it.

I rested my head against the tree trunk and closed my eyes.

• • • • • • • • • •

I woke up confused with where I was. Then it all came back to me. The fight I had with Niall and how I ran off.

I checked the time and realized I had been asleep for about two hours. I had over twenty missed calls from Niall and ten unread messages. I sighed. I knew I had to go back, as much as I hated the idea of talking to him at the moment.

I walked back as slow as I could. It wasn't too slow though considering how cold I was. I just wanted to get someplace warm.
Two minutes passed and I could see the cabin from where I was standing.

I took a deep breath before opening the door and walking in.

Niall abruptly got up from the sofa at the sound of the door. He basically ran over to me and hugged me. I closed my eyes not wanting anymore tears to slip. I stood still with my arms by my side until he decided to let go.

"Are you ok? I was looking for you everywhere. " He asked his hand's holding me still. I knew that if I talked or even looked at him I would start crying again so I didn't.

I walked away from him and into the bedroom. I had been through enough for tonight It won't hurt him if he sleep's on the couch.

"So is this how your gonna handle all of this? " He asked his voice startling me. I didn't answer him.

"You're gonna run off and then not talk to me? " He asked more like stated.

"That's what you did. " I shot back. He didn't say anything esle and walked out of the room.

I took a seat on the bed and closed my eyes. This is too much for just one day. I just want to go home and act like this never happened.

I put the cover's around me and cuddled into one of the pillows.

Closing my eyes I drifted off to a restless sleep.

Woah.

Intense.

It's my birthday.! :)

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