Wishes

Chapter 15

The feeling that hung in the air was gloom as I walked past all the headstones of loved ones and wilted flowers. There was fog all over the area making me wonder why I was here just as the crows of the birds continued to go on while they perched on the bowing willow trees with their beady eyes watching me. Looking around even more I watched everything that was here and spotted all the differences since the last time I had been here. My feet continued to travel along the gravel path until it lead me to a area that had a tree different to all the others with one head stone up close to the tree making a few tears leak out at the site. Only making me wish I had brought some flowers whilst I walked over to the headstone and traced my fingers around the words craved into the stone.

‘Ethan Mortis 1968-2011. A loving husband, friend and father who always brought out the best in people with his love of music and his fun personality, May you rest in peace rocking out in heaven.’ Smiling at the last words more tears leaked out just before sobs started to wrack my body whilst I curled up on the ground hugging my knees staring at his headstone. My long chocolaty brown hair covered my face whilst I wiped away the tears before I looked back at his headstone thinking of what to do before I found my lips moving.

“Hey Dad. I have a few things to say right now so if you could stop rocking in heaven for a sec can you please listen.” Taking a breath I looked around at the area before I continued hoping no one was here.

“Um I am having a good time at my new school and doing well.” My mind wandered around thinking of what to say next as I fiddled with my hair.

“Well I came here to tell you that am doing music this year and its ok so far, but at the end of the year we have to perform in front of the whole school.” A few tears leaked out before I could wipe them away just as they sank into the soil.

“I don’t know what to do. I love singing and performing, but I can’t do it after what happened last time I preformed it just……” The tears started to flow down making it hard to continue talking.

“Dad what should I do? I want to perform, but my heart and soul aren’t in it after the last time. Should I perform or not?” Wishing he could send me a sign a light breeze brushed over me making me hope that I knew what to do.

“Dad what if I just sang this time I could dedicate it to you or someone special and maybe I could feel better if I sang this one time. Would you be there?” I knew it sounded silly, but hope he could be there in spirit to watch over me like all the other time I sang when I was little where he would have a smile so big that I would laugh at the end and rush up to hug him. A hasher breeze brushed by this time leaving a flower to roll by and land in front of me knowing it was his way of telling me yes. When I looked up at the tree I could just picture his figure leaning against the tree with his light brown hair getting hassled by the wind as his green eyes watched me and a huge smile hanged on his face just before he nodded his head telling me yes. A smile fluttered onto my face before I knew I could do it and wishing I could hug him right now.

“Dad I just wish you could be here right now.” Whispering those words I looked at his headstone and sat there in silence until I felt the need to speak, but I didn’t want to break the nice silence that filled around me. Even with the silence I could hear all the noise around me making the silence vanish as I closed my eyes and the chirps of birds, leafs rustling in the wind and the sounds of laughter that was carried here danced in my ears. Opening my eyes I continued to stare at his stone before I began to talk again.

“Dad I wish you were here so you could see Liam and bell and even meet someone. Bell has grown quiet a lot and has this new best friend called Nico.” A laugh escaped my lips whilst I remember how they acted together before I continued.