Crush Shalex - Alex Dorame x HeyThereImShannon (girlxgirl) {Discontinued}

Chapter 25 - Alex

~CONTAINS MENTIONS OF CHEATING~

(Alex's POV)

I play with the bubbles laying around my body as I soak in the warm water. My mind drifting off to thoughts of Shannon..

Our first date..

Our first kiss..

Cuddling with her..

When she kissed Johnnie..

When she said they were dating..

I feel tears slip down my face.

It hurt.

I can't say that it doesn't. I can't pretend like it didn't happen.

I can't say that it wasn't happening behind my back.

I feel more tears slip down my face, landing in the body of water.

It was happening behind my back, and I didn't even know. I know live with the thoughts that every time we kissed, she had done the same thing with Johnnie, minutes before. The same kisses. The sweet little nothings she would whisper in my ear. Ha. Yeah. sweet little Nothings. Nothings. My heart meant nothing to her. She just played with me and through me away. I wonder if she even knows how much it hurts me? Was she planning it all along? I hear more tears hit the water

I can't think about this right now.

My thoughts travel off to Johnnie.. He likes Kyle. That makes me happy. Honestly I think they would be a better couple than Shannon and Johnnie ever would. And i'm not saying that because I want to be with Shannon.

I want to be with Shannon. That just occurred to me. I still want to be with Shannon. After she cheated on me. After she made out with Johnnie on my bed. I still want to be with her. I still like her. I still love her. I would still date her.

Is that even healthy? Still loving and wanting to be with someone who cheated on you, and would still take them back, four days after they cheated on you.. aren't you suppose have like.. a time where you think about if you still want to be with them? I don't know. Maybe i'm crazy. For dating her. To think she actually cared about me. To love her. To believe her when she said that she loved me back. To take her back after she cheated on me.

Yeah. I probably am crazy.

I can't stop thinking about Johnnie though. Kohnnie could be real. I could make Kohnnie real. Kyle is gay.. and Johnnie.. well he could use a Kyle in his love life.. even if he is straight. Kyle is a good guy. Maybe I could try to get them together. Maybe I shouldn't. I mean.. He was pretty upset when he broke it off with Shannon he might not be ready to be in another relationship.

But Kohnnie though. That would be so cute. I feel like they would be like me and Shannon were, but for real. No lying. No cheating. Just love. Just an adorable ship that literally everyone knows about and wants to be real.

A/N You guys blew the milestone of 3.5k by the New Year out of the water! :) We're almost at 4k :)