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~Triggering content should be over within a few chapters~
~Trigger Warning. Contains mentions of self harm, eating disorders, cheating, rape, other possible triggers.
Chris? ~ Johnnie
Yes? ~ Chris
Why are you talking to me? ~ Johnnie
What do you mean beautiful? ~ Chris
Why are you talking to me? Why do you want to hurt me ~Johnnie
Tears slipped down my face more as I wrote this because, he didn't just want to hurt me. He wanted to hurt my friends as well. He wanted to destroy our lives and I don't even understand why.
Why do you want to hurt me. ~ Johnnie
I don't want to hurt you Johnnie ~ Chris
Why won't you leave me alone then ~ Johnnie
Because I want to be with you Johnnie ~ Chris
I love you ~ Chris
Ok. ~ Johnnie
What? You aren't going to say it back? ~ Chris
No. ~ Johnnie
I would pretend a lot of things to get rid of Chris. Pretend I didn't want to puke when he called me beautiful. That as I am typing I'm not thinking of anything that I could do to get him away from me, but telling him I love him is not one of those things. My heart belongs to Kyle and I wouldn't say otherwise.
Why? ~ Chris
Because I don't love you. What do you want from me ~ Johnnie
Why the fuck not?! ~ Chris
Why would I? You tried to rip my life apart. You made me starve myself, cut myself. You raped me. Why would I love you? ~ Johnnie
I'm sorry Johnnie but I can't go back in time. If I did I wouldn't have done any of those things. Im sorry cutie. ~ Chris
Bullshit. You wouldn't take anything back. I don't want anything to do with you. Leave me alone ~ Johnnie
Im sorry beautiful. I really am. ~ Chris
I don't fucking care. Your not. If you were sorry you would leave me alone stop talking to me. ~ Johnnie
But I love you. ~ Chris
I don't fucking care. Leave me alone. Stop talking to me. I don't want to talk to you I want you to leave me alone. If you love me then stop talking to me. ~ Johnnie
I choke on sobs as I texted him, remembering memories that I had tried so hard to forget.
Sure I loved Chris at one point. But that was short lived. He got in my head. Messed me up. I still have scars mentally and physically, I loved him, and I thought he loved me. Just a stupid kid in love. Loving the feeling of love has hurt me so bad.
But I want to be with you. Give me a second chance. I'll make it up to you, love ~ Chris
No. I gave you second chance. A third chance. I gave you so many fucking chances and you hurt me every time. I never want to see you again. I have Kyle. I will never love you. And I will never stop loving him. ~ Johnnie
You know I can treat you much better than he can. Gives you thing he won't be able to. You know you want me, not that fag. ~ Chris
Don't call you a fag you fucking asshole. I don't care what you say. Stop talking to me ~ Johnnie
Sure I had thought about talking to Bryan. I want to desperately. But last time Bryan interacted with Chris it wasn't pretty. It scared me so bad, what Chris was capable of.
Why don't we meet up some time? ~ Chris
No! ~ Johnnie
I understand your scared Johnnie. Just come with me. We can continue where we left off. ~ Chris
What. With me trying to kill myself? Should I just go get a gun? ~ Johnnie
Johnnie. Don't be silly. I mean we can be together again. Date. It'll be just like when we first met. ~ Chris
I smiled when I remembered that day. Running into him while I was trying to get away from bullies, not knowing he would turn out to be the worse bully I would ever meet. The way he smiled and giggled and held my hand.
Then how he started to make fun of me. Taunt me and pick on my weight. The day he walked in on me cutting myself.
The thoughts only got darker as more tears fell down my face.
No. I told you. I never want to see you again ~ Johnnie
Stop being so stubborn. You know you want me Johnnie. ~ Chris
Stop being so fucking cocky Chris. I don't want you. I will never want you. ~ Johnnie
Ha. Really Johnnie? Your such a slut. You know you want me. You know you want me to touch you and hold you. You know you want me to fuck you and make out with you ~ Chris
No I don't. I want you to leave me alone. ~ Johnnie
Your so fucking worthless Johnnie. Im surprised those losers you hang out with haven't left yet. I'll make sure it happens soon.
No. ~ Johnnie
No what? No you won't cooperate? Ha. I can tell. Its okay Johnnie. You'll learn. ~ Chris
No I won't. ~ Johnnie
Oh but you will. I know you would do anything to protect your dear friends. ~ Chris
Don't fucking go near them! ~ Johnnie
Sorry. Its not up to you anymore ~ Chris
You should have just let me win. ~ Chris
Don't fucking touch them ~ Johnnie
Can't say I haven't already. ~ Chris
Chris please ~ Johnnie
Please what love? ~ Chris
Please don't talk to my friends. ~ Johnnie
Why not? I think it'll be fun ~ Chris
No! Stop! Pleasee! ~ Johnnie
But I don't want to. ~ Chris
Chris ~ Johnnie
What? ~ Chris
I know what this could do to all my friends, and now I know what I have to do.
...
Chris.. ~ Johnnie
I..i-if.if I kill myself..will you leave my friends alone? ~ Johnnie
A/N Aandd.. Cliffhanger! I'm evil. Poor Johnnie. :'((
I got this app and I've been writing on it lately then transferring it to wattpad, it doesn't wphave a word count and I didn't even notice how long this was like. Dang.
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