dear hope,
i love him. he makes me feel like i matter, like i'm important. he makes me feel safe and loved. the list is never-ending, hope. i really do love him. for everything he is.
do you remember the argument we had about him, hope? kind of ironic, isn't it? hahah.
i am sorry, hope. really sorry.
do you want to know something, hope? it scares me. despite everything, hope, it scares me.
sounds familiar, doesn't it? a glimpse into the past, huh? hah.
hope, i know you'd be disappointed in me. i'm disappointed in myself. you know what though, hope? i would not change how i feel. i mean, it's not like i could, anyways, but you know.
i am sorry for everything, hope.
love,
heaven rae
