dear hope,
it stings. i broke that blue plate, the one she used to always put her chocolate chip cookies on. i didn't mean to. i was just trying to wash it, but, hope, i'm clumsy. he hit me the minute it touched the ground.
he told me i'm stupid, again. why am i so stupid, hope? i don't want to be stupid anymore. i want to be as smart as she was. oh, she was so smart, hope.
i miss her. i miss her a lot. she always understood. you would've liked her, hope. no, you would've loved her. i know she would've loved you, too. almost as much as i loved you. no, as much as i love you. i will always love you, hope.
he's back, hope. i knew he would come back, but i didn't think it would be this soon. he's drunk again, hope. i can smell the alcohol from here, and he is angry. i can hear him throwing things downstairs, hope.
i'm scared, hope. please come back. i need you.
love,
heaven rae
