|| You Were Everything To Me ||

The Confession ❤

||You Were Everything To Me||

Chapter-30

"Tuhanu fark painda ae?( apko farak padhta hai?)"Kudrat asked him looking into his eyes.

"Ki?(kya?)" he asked. Her words left him shocked. He thought he heard wrong.

"Farak painda hai koi?"She asked again.

"Ehda ki matlab hai?( iska kya matlab hai?)"Arjun asked her not knowing what she was talking about.

"Main jaawan ya rahan. Ki farak painda ae ! Saareyan di life ta chaldi hi rehni hai( main jaaun ya rahun .kya farak padhta hai. Sabki life chalti hi rahege.)"She smiled sadly.

"What are you talking about ?"Arjun touched her right shoulder with his left hand.

Kudrat broke the eye contact and turned her head towards the lake. She was staring at the lake. Tears forming into her eyes. The emotions she was supressing from so long were coming out. In forms of words, in form of  tears.

And for the first time in life, she didn't feel like hiding them. She knew its now or never. She couldn't go ahead with this baggage of one sided emotions.

"Are you crying? What happened?Kudrat please don't cry. Dss mainu ki hoya ae( bta mujhe kya hua hai?)"Arjun panicked after looking into her teary eyes.

She turned her head to the opposite side from Arjun's and cried some more. Thankfully there were not much people around and no one noticed her crying.

"Ki sun na chaunde o tuc ? (Kya sun na chahte ho aap?)"She asked him.

"Mainu dss Kudrat ki hoya ae. I am your friend. Ain't I?",Arjun said.

Kudrat smiled sadly at this statement.

"You know what Arjun. All my life, I craved for that one person in my life with whom I can share my innerself. All these years, people only used me for their own good. I was never special to someone. As a result, I stopped getting close to people"She said in a calm voice and halted for a moment and looked at him who was already looking at her intently.

"And then you came. And you changed everything. You stepped into that place which I closed long ago.

People always break my trust Arjun. I was , I am afraid of trusting people. But you, you came as a blessing to me. I was happy. That finally I have someone to share my trueself with.

And then the blunder happened. I fell in love with you"She said looking at the lake again.

Arjun snapped up his eyes and looked at Kudrat. He was stunned at her confession.

They say it take girl's  all courage and strength to confess her love for someone.

"A girl who never wanted to fall in  love fell in love with her only friend. Days passed and I missinterpreted your care as your love. It was only friendship from your side. And then came the day when you and Jasmine reunited.

I didn't want to cry that day. But I cried. It ached badly. I was dying at that moment. That pain was unbearable but I never said anything because I always wanted you to be happy.

I was happy that you are happy. I cherished our friendship more than my love.

I used to cry myself to sleep. I was always afraid of heartbreak and exactly that happened with me. The only man I loved loves someone else. How ironical ?

And then you slowly drifted away from me. I know not knowingly. Jasmine was the only important part of your life. And I appreciate this.

But whenever you used fight with Jasmine,  I was the one you came running to but the moment everything sorted between you two, it was like I am nothing to you.

It pained badly Arjun . And then the ki.....kiss "She stammered while speaking,"That kiss was the saturation point Arjun. You kissed me because you wanted to wash away pain given by Jasmine. There were no emotions from your side in that kiss.

It ripped apart everything Arjun. I am tired, tired of being second option to everyone.I too want to feel loved. Why everyone do this to me? I am not asking you to love me back. I never expected it, but I expected our friendship to nurture for whole life Arjun.

I wanted you to be with me when I was in problem, I wanted you to listen to my share of secrets, to share my happiness, to share my pain. I never wanted something more. Just pure friendship but you were always engrossed in your problems, your happiness, your insecurities.

Where was I Arjun?

I have no issues about love. I know you don't love me and that is perfectly okay with me. But what about friendship Arjun ? Why you changed so much. "she said in one go.  Her face was completely wet with tears.

Arjun was numb.

It started raining and people started going back.

And there were two souls getting drenched in the rain. The girl who was crying by hiding her face in her palms and the boy who was looking at her and was fighting with his own tears and words.

Kudrat was trying to sooth her pain with the cold droplets of rain water whereas Arjun was trying to wash his guilt away . But alas.

Arjun felt his words stuck in his throat. He was trying to say something but his voice was not supporting him.

This girl in front of him was going through so much and not once told him about anything. What kind of friend he is ? He was not able to see this through her eyes.

Kudrat was there whenever Arjun needed her. She was always there like a support, a shadow to him in his problems and here he was so lost in his own life and happiness that he totally ignored Kudrat.

He felt like killing himself at the moment. Realization pained badly. Kudrat, the girl who was afraid of falling in love with anyone, fell for him and here he was not able to shower her with his friendship let alone love.

His heart ached badly at the thought of Kudrat crying.

Finally he gathered some courage and said,"Kudrat".

She silently pulled out her face from her palms  started looking at the lake acknowledging his speech.

The lake's water which was still until past half an hour now was dancing in rhym as rain's droplets were touching water surface.

How ironical ? This still lake was Kudrat until Arjun came as a rain in her life and her emotions went on toss. She was like this water surface dancing in rhyme with Arjun's presence but she forgot that the rain has to stop someday. 

"Ku...Kudrat...I never knew..."Arjun choked on his own words.

"Mainu dusya kyun ni kade?( mujhe btaya kyun nahin kabhi?)"Arjun  finally asked.

"Tuc ta mere friend sigge na? Tuhanu kaddey v ni dikhya meriyan akhaan ch?( aap toh mere friend the na? Aap ko kabhi nahin dikha meri aankhon mein?)"Kudrat asked him in dangerously calm voice.

"Mainu ki pta c ke tu...!(mujhe kya pta tha ki tu?)"Arjun tried to form a sentence.

"Main pyaar di gal taan kiti hi nahin Arjun. Par dosti ? ( maine pyar ki baat toh ki hi nahin Arjun. Par dosti ?)"Kudrat said looking at him through her teary eyes.

And that was it. Arjun was not able to see into her eyes. Those brown orbs held so deep and intense emotions that he felt himself burning in them. Her pain was visible through her eyes.

Arjun was horrified that how he was not able to look through her eyes into her soul.

Was he so engrossed in his life and Jasmine? Jasmine which was nothing more than a infatuation and only because of that infatutation he hurted the only girl he love. The girl who loved him beyond any expectations.

"I am....am sorry...."Arjun  stammered again.

"Sorry na bolo tuc Arjun. Sorry na bolo.Galti meri hi c.Main kiddan bhul gayi c ke dosti te pyar mere waaste nahin banya. Taan hi taan main kalli aan aaj tak. ( sorry mat bolo aap Arjun. Galti meri hi the. Main kaise bhul gayi the ke pyar aur dosti mere liye nahin bne. Tabhi toh main akeli hu aaj tak)"She smiled sadly and cleared her teary eyes with her left hand.

"Please don't say this. You are worthy of all the love and friendship"he said touching her shoulder.

"Kehan naal kuch ni hunda Arjun"She hushed.

Arjun didn't know what more to say. She was badly broken and he didn't know if he will ever be able to mend this.

He was here to confess his love, to tell her that he was in love with her but at the moment it all seemed unnecessary.

To Be Continued...❤
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