Chapter 15- Can I Trust Him?

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Chapter 15- Can I Trust Him?

They stared at the amazing view for what seemed like ages.

It was a pretty cold night, Taylor didn't wore much, just a casual black sleeveless top paired with a skirt that reached just right above her knees.

Zayn noticed Taylor had been trying to warm herself up by letting out deep breaths on her palms so, being the caring Zayn he was, he just couldn't watch the girl freeze. So, he took off his leather jacket and then rested it on Taylor's shoulder which acted like a shoal.

She immediately moved her head to the side to see what had stopped her from freezing yet her eyes met with a greenish blue one, sending warm auras to her.

"Thanks." Taylor replied with a smile.

"It's nothing." Zayn returned the smile and moved his hands to his mouth, giving out hot air on it.

All of a sudden out of nowhere, Taylor sneezed."Aaachoo!"

Zayn laughed a little at the sight of her bangs being blown up a little when she sneezed and went close to her and put his arms around her and started rubbing them up and down from her shoulder down to her elbow.

Taylor immediately stiffened when she felt Zayn's touch. So warm, so new, yet so real.

"You catch a cold so easily." Zayn breathed out while pulling her head towards him and rested it on his left shoulder.

Taylor still couldn't move, didn't know how she could ever tell him it wasn't because of the weather right then and there, but because of sitting on her bedroom floor half naked with a wet body.

I could never tell him.

But then she realized, she had never been this close to a guy before except Harry. Harry was her first boyfriend, first love and she always thought he would be her last, but she was so wrong.

She could hear something thumping through the grey turtleneck sweater Zayn was wearing, it was his heart, beating at the speed of light and she felt relieved that she wasn't the only one feeling that way right then and there.

She felt every breath Zayn let out that softly hit her head, every vibration that was radiated when he spoke and every single fast, loud, heartbeat which will 100% be able to be heard even if he wore a thick coat.

She knew Zayn had trusted her enough to open up to her about so many private things about him yet all Taylor said to him was nothing. She had never been honest with him.

Can I trust him?

Then she had an answer.

She was going to trust this guy she met for only a day. She was going to open up to him.

And he, was going to be her new wall, to lie on, in a friendly way.

"Taylor?" she heard Zayn called and slightly felt tickled by the vibrations that was sent from Zayn's chest to her ear.

"Yeah?" She finally moved her head away and looked up at Zayn's mesmerizing greenish blue eyes.

Zayn never thought these words would come out of his mouth, but it did, "Would you like to go out on a date with me?"

Taylor's eyes widened. She didn't know what she was feeling, it was a mixture of excitement, worry, happiness, terror and flattery.

She was about to give him a direct positive answer but when she opened her mouth, she hesitated and closed it.

No, if I go out with him and I fall for him and he falls for me, everything that happened between me and Harry would go on repeat, and we'll shut each other out and never see each other again, just like before.

I don't want to lose Zayn.

I really don't.

"I-" Taylor could feel some tears forming in her eyes but she managed, "I can't. I'm so sorry."

And there she went. She turned her head around, tightening her grip on the leather jacket around herself and ran into the woods.

As she ran, tears streamed down her face, damping her face and drying at the same time due to the fast speed she was running at.

Just then, Zayn's leather jacket that laid on her shoulders fell onto the ground filled with dirt.

Oh no.

She immediately picked it up and ran her hands through it, brushing the soil away and then putting it around her again.

It was dark, the sound of the wind blowing terrified her. Where was she gonna go?

She had just hurt the only person she might be willing to have a relationship yet she rejected him just cause she was afraid, afraid that the tragedy will be repeated.

I can't risk it. No.

Taylor continued running when suddenly she felt a warm hand grabbed her arm.

Reacting, she immediately turned around and her eyes met with Zayn's.

He had went after her.

"Stop running." Zayn managed under his heavy breathing, "I'm fine."

"I'm so sorry, Zayn, I just can't. I-I'm scared."

"Me too."

Taylor shook her head constantly and said, "N-no! You don't get it... I... I've experienced it before and I can't risk another goodbye."

"You won't have to."

"How do I know you won't hurt me like he did?"

"Because I've been hurt before, and I know what it's like to be hurt. And I would never hurt you."

Harry said the exact thing.

-FLASHBACK-

"Go out with me, Taylor." Harry said as he looked at Taylor's eyes, filled with innocence.

"What?" Taylor was shocked, she's been having a crush on Harry for ages but she never thought he'd ask this fast.

"I'm serious. I like you, Taylor."

"I-I'm scared. I've never dated anyone before and I.."

"I know. I will never hurt you, Taylor. Ever."

-END OF FLASH-

That's what they all said.

"It's fine if you don't want to. I won't force you. We can stay friends." Zayn said finally giving up and gave her a warm smile.

She still loves him. He thought.

"I'm so sorry, Zayn." Taylor apologized, half relieved and half not since a part of her wanted to say yes but the other part gave in to fear.

"What, you think I'm gonna get dragged down just like that?" Zayn laughed, hiding his sadness, "You were wrong, Taylor, at least we're friends."

At least we're...

Friends.

TO BE CONTINUED...

So sad that Taylor rejected Zayn's offer. She should really just trust him for once. Their first date would've been great if she said yes.

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Written by: Mandy

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