Winds of Change

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

Beau's Pov

I stared at her running away. How could she? Was I not important at all? Why didn't she tell me? I turned and walked away, not bothering to follow her. I wanted to be alone. I walked to my car and shut the door, slamming my hands down on the steering wheel. The tears finally fell. My girlfriend could die. She wouldn't be with me anymore. I might not be able to hold her or kiss her. A pain shoot through my chest as the tears continued. I had finally had my chance to be with her and she might leave me. I put all the pieces together. When she would stay in bed for hours on time. When her head aches were to much for her to handle. Why didn't I notice before? I looked to where she was sitting hours before and noticed the small bear I had given her. I took it in my hands and hugged it to my chest. Why me? Why her? After we were finally happy. I heard a knocking on my window and I turned toward the noise. It was Chase. I opened the door and his eyes widened as he took in my appearance. 

"Beau wha- what happened?"

"She told me," I whispered.

"Where is she?"

"I don't know."

"You let her leave? Beau! Don't you realize that if she gets a strong headache, she'll pass out? Are you stupid?!" He yelled.

My eyes widened,"I-I wasn't thinking."

He gave me a disappointed look,"Go look for her."

I nodded and shut the door. I started driving, heading in the direction she ran in. I saw a figure leaning against the tree and I stopped the car. I ran, and recognized the dress she was wearing. Her face was turned in the other direction.

"Abby?"

"You came," she said in a cold voice,"I don't see why you did."

I flinched,"I'm sorry, for not understanding you," I sat next to her and took her hand," I don't want you to leave me."

She pulled her hand away,"What about me Beau? Weren't you thinking that I would need you? That out of all people I would need you to tell me that "everything was going to be okay"? You let me run. You let me turn away from you. When all I wanted was for you to pull me in your arms and comfort me. I wanted us to go through this together. I wanted to spend every single moment with just in case I'm not living in a few months. That's all I wanted."

My eyes filled with tears again,"I know, but I was in shock. I just learned that my girlfriend has cancer. . You might be gone in a few months. I-I can't deal with that so easily. I love you. I don't want to lose you."

She turned to look at me, her eyes cold and lifeless,"You already did."

I felt my heart break,"But you love me."

"I do, but I'm not going to put this on you. I don't want you to remember me as your girlfriend. I don't want to be a painful memory for you. It's better to let you go, so you won't see me die, in case I do. I'm sorry."

"Abby, you just can't give up on us, please."

She sighed,"I'm not giving up on us. I'm letting you go so you won't suffer much if I leave."

"I don't want! Let me be with you Abby!"

"I'm sorry, but no. Please take me home."

I sighed in defeat, and motioned for her to follow me. The ride to her house was quiet. It worried me that she acted like this. So cold, emotionless. It wasn't like her. I parked in front of her lawn, and before she could get out, I pulled her in my arms. 

"Don't push me away," I pleaded.

She sighed,"I can't hurt you."

"You're hurting me now."