The Pariah

Chapter 35

WARNING: Self-harm 

Chapter Song: Nine Lashes - Get Back

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Needless to say, after we escaped the town in the dead of night, with three Dark Angels left behind tied up to the people of the town, everyone was mad at me. Myrina wouldn't look at me the whole time we left the city, Cohart had just shaken his head at me when I tried to explain to him what happened. Even Paige didn't seem like she was too happy with me. Nope, everyone was mad at me. Except for Jones. Though, she had apologized for making me do something so stupid. She knew that it was supposed to be a secret that I'm alive. 

It was then that something had occurred to me. Keeping myself a secret was going to be way harder than I had originally thought. I simply thought that I would need to be on the down low. But that also meant I would need to hide when the Dark Angels come, not help my friends when they were in trouble and above all, don't participate. That was tough for me. It was usually the other way around for me. 

My friends had no clue of what was happening a year ago. They simply thought that all of this going on with me was just some personal problem I had. Which it was. Now I am the one being left out of the group talkings. I had no say as they stood around, talking in hushed tones, sometimes looking my way. 

Currently, we were miles away from the Citadel. Nightfall had fell over us and we were in the wild, crickets chirping, owls hooting. Here I am, sitting on this rock, drawing stupid pictures in the dirt. I felt like a kid in time out. Which obviously made me feel both stupid and wreckless. 

I sighed. 

They continued to talk and I was left out of it all. They all asked me to go sit somewhere while they spoke to each other. I oblidged unhappily and ended up sitting a few feet away, trying to strain my ears to hear, but they had been talking so quietly, it was damn near impossible. I groaned and dropped my head in my lap. 

I'm being punished for stopping my sister being raped. 

Then again, she would have handled it anyway. She handled him and the other asshole that tried to stop her. She would have handled it well, too. But goddess, can you blame me? It's not in my nature to just sit there and hope. 

Even Bella was mad at me!

They finally stopped talking amongst themselves and told me I could come back. They didn't tell me a thing about what they had been talking about, instead just pretended it didn't happen. I wanted to ask, but I knew they wouldn't tell me anyway. I just wound up sitting around the fire next to everyone, pouting like a child. 

Myrina looked my way and our eyes met, but she looked away as soon as they met and continued talking with Cohart about shifts for keeping watch. Paige was sitting next to Bella, inspecting over her for any cuts. She didn't even ask if I was okay. Not that I needed it, but that's how I figured out she really was mad at me. She didn't even bother asking me, she just ignored me the whole walk here. 

Priam and Jones were both poking at the fire and laughing it up. I wanted to groan, but I knew that would make me sound like a child trying to get attention. 

So it was a surprise when Evander took a seat next to me and even gave me a smile. I didn't even expect him to say anything to me. We didn't ever speak much before all of this happened. He and I didn't hate each other, at least, I didn't, but we just never talked. 

He looked the same as he did a year ago. 

A grey beanie on his head, a v-neck t-shirt on his strong build, a pair of ripped jeans accompanied with a pair of Vans shoes. His hair had overgrown a bit, but other than that, he looked the same.