Miss HOT and Mr. COLD

CHAPTER 19: Confused

Remembering everything that happened in the past makes me want to cry again but I'm controlling myself from doing it. They chose to hurt me and the rest was history.

Here's what Jay and I talked about in SB.

(STARBUCKS)

"Jay..." I said unconsciously

"Apathie, I want to talk to you please..." Jay said sincerely

"Wala na tayong dapat pag-usapan pa." nag-iwas ako ng tingin sa kanya

"Please hear me out. Please..." then lumuhod siya sa gilid ko

I looked around and noticed that the other customers are curious about our scene at mismong pati si Daniella ay nagsalita na rin.

"You're one pathetic fcker." tiningnan ako ni Daniella with "Are you okay?" look kaya tumango ako then sighed

"Jay please... *baling ko sa kanya* Tumayo ka diyan. Fine. Let's talk." tiningnan ko si Daniella ng makahulugan at para naman na nagets niya agad ang gusto kong sabihin

"Just text me and I'll go wherever you are." at umalis na nga siya

Umupo si Jay sa harap ko kaya napabuntong hininga ako ng malalim. Kung pwede lang na lamunin na ako ng upuan at lamesa, sana ngayon na. The ambiance of the Starbucks became heavy and I hate it!

"Shoot!" I told him like I ain't interested with what he's going to say

"I'm so sorry. Nagsisisi ako sa lahat ng ginawa ko sayo noong tayo pa. Kami ni Dianne, when you caught us we decided to stop everything our communication and even our friendship. Nakonsensya kami pareho. Alam namin na mali but then we still did it. I know that you hate me so much and I'm really sorry for that. If you can give me one last chance my princess I'll surely treasure and take care of it. I'll never break your trust again and keep myself away from every temptation that will go on my way. And if I found someone that is greater than you I'll shut my eyes off so I won't see her. Please my princess. Please one last chance." he said sincerely but dang! I'm still hurt with what they did

"Oh Jay... *pumikit ako ng mariin saka ko siya tiningnan sa mata nang blangko* The damage was already done. Alam niyo ba kung gaano kasakit at kahirap sa akin tanggapin ang ginawa niyo? Niloko niyo ako for pete's sake! Tapos parang ang dali-dali lang sa inyo ang patawarin ko kayo? Wala pang isang taon Jay, it feels like it was just yesterday. Maawa ka naman sa akin." I felt like sobbing

"I'm sorry my princess... but please let me heal your heart that I once broke because of my stupid urge." pamimilit niya pa

"Jay... I'll forgive you but... not now. Just give me time and space to heal then after that maybe just maybe... I can forgive you. Bye." tumayo na ako at hindi na hinayaan pa na makapagsalita siya

Second Chance? That's a complete bllsht! Dahil kung nagawa niya ako lokohin noon with my bestfriend, I'm sure na magagawa niya ulit sa akin yun there's no guarantee that he'll change for the better. 

Lumabas ako ng Starbucks and texted Daniella.

"Fifth Ave. Corner" SENT!

After 15 mins., Daniella's already hugging me and for I don't know reason, I can't feel my body and that I'm already crying.

"Ssshhh... Wag ka na umiyak. I'm already here Princess." pero parang may sariling pag-iisip ang mga mata ko, patuloy lang ito sa pagluha

"Masakit pa rin Daniella. Ang sakit kasi na parang ganun lang kadali ang magpatawad when in fact, just having the thought of forgiving them and forgetting what they've done is such a torture."

"Madali magpatawag Princess, makalimot... yun ang mahirap. Wag ka ng umiyak. Only time can heal your heart that's torn into pieces. Just let it be." he slightly patted my back

Ilang minuto din kami sa ganung posisyon. Hinayaaan niya lang ako umiyak and I felt relieved.

Hinatid niya ako sa hotel room na tinutuluyan ko, dumirecho ako sa kwarto ko because I'm so exhausted. Syempre nagpaalam ako kay Daniella... I don't want to be rude to a person na sobrang nagpapahalaga sa akin.

(KINABUKASAN)

Pagkalabas ko ng kwarto I got confused with what I see.

There were scattered petals of pink roses na naka-arranged like a pathway. So, sinundan ko yun and that led me to my terrace. There's a table arranged for two. May orange juice, bread, sunny side-up egg and bacon, bigla akong nakaramdam ng gutom.

"Good morning Princess." bulong ni Daniella sa tenga ko. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang hininga niya na nagpataas ng balahibo ko

"D-daniella! Uhmm... G-good morning din." awkward kong sagot

"I prepared breakfast for us, let's eat!"

"Yeah, let's eat. Nagutom ako ng makita ko ang nakahain sa mesa." I smiled at him trying to break the awkwardness I'm feeling towards him

"That's great! Pinaghirapan ko yan. Nagset-up pa ako para lang mapangiti ka sa umaga. *Laugh* Mukha naman nagtagumpay ako, namumula ka eh." Shizz! Ako namumula?

"Huh!? Hindi no!" sabay talikod ko sa kanya na mas lalo niyang naikatawa

"HAHAHAHA! I'm just kidding. Tara na dito at baka ubusan kita ng pagkain." humarap ako sa kanya at nakita ko na ang ganda ng ngiti niya

"PG ka talaga! Tara na nga!" ipinaghila niya ako ng upuan *sweet* that's what I'm thinking right now. Kumain nalang kami ng tahimik

After having breakfast with this sweet-not-really guy, we decided to unwind and wander around places in New York. (So magde-date kayo?) I think so?! (Flirt!) Excuse me lang sub-conscious ha, wag kang ano dyan. *roll eyes*

I did my morning ritual and dressed simply. I wore a simple blouse and paired it with a skinny jean and mid-leg boots as my footwear. Hindi na ako naglagay ng make-up dahil hindi naman date 'to like my crazy sub-conscious says. *sigh*

"Daniella? I'm ready!!!" sigaw ko na rinig sa buong room

"Be there in a minute!" sigaw niya rin from my guestroom na ikina-iling ko

"At siya pa talaga ang matagal ha?!?"  I thought

"Done!" and the moment I looked at him... my jaw dropped

All I can say's "WOAHH!" kasi talaga naman na ang gwapo niya! NakaV-neck shirt lang siya na pinatungan ng coat and nakatupi yung pants niya paired with a nude leather shoes.

"Close your mouth Prince. *inangat niya yung jaw ko to close my mouth* Mukha kang tanga." with pokerface look

"Mean." nung natauhan na ako saka ko siya inirapan

Well, kung ano man 'tong paghanga na nararamdaman ko kay Daniella I hope di na lumala ito. Masasaktan lang ako pag nagkataon. Sobrang bait niya sa akin and sweet kaya hindi mahirap na mafall sa kanya.

Daniella what are you doing to me? You're giving me this problem called... Confusion with my feeling. *sigh*