The Duggars: Who Knows How Many in Counting...

Point of View- Jana

The last few years have been difficult. Josie has had a few more health scares but she's okay now.  Usually I am the one home taking care of the children, especially Josie, so it was scary to know Josie wasn't doing well when I wasn't there.

The latest scare was when Jessa didn't answer her phone when Mama tried to call.

John and I have been in Calgary Alberta for the past few years. We just came back for Josie's 13th birthday. The kids have grown up so fast and so much. There were many tears of joy when we returned.

I know it's all about religion in my family. Lots of the kids have gone through courtships and then gotten married, but I chose not to. God forbid Pops would find out.

His name is Dawson. I met him in Calgary. John knows about him. I know he wouldn't tell a single soul. Anyways, we were hanging out a lot, then things got carried away.

One morning I woke up and felt sick. I thought it was the flu. It kept happening more and more often in the mornings. I finally realized that I was pregnant. To make sure, I got a pregnancy test. It said positive. I don't know how many yet.

Usually baby births are a happy and exciting occasion at my house. This time it might be different.

I started crying. A mix of happiness, excitement and fear. I told John first. He was speechless. Then he told me that it is God's plan. I figured that if I really loved Dawson, then I loved the baby. I automatically loved the baby and couldn't abort it. Adoption would be an option but I couldn't bear it.

The next time I saw Dawson, I told him about the baby. I thought he was going to rage, but he turned it into a smile and started crying happy tears.
"That's amazing!" He whispered into my ear.
"What do I do?" I asked him.
"What do you mean? You have a baby inside of you."
"My family is STRICT about only having babies after marriage and courtship."
"Oh." He said.

I kept gaining weight, more rapidly than normal. I went to a doctor and found out we are having triplets. The first set of triplets in the Duggar household so far.

A few weeks later,  John and I were at the home. I had to leave Dawson in Calgary. The house was still as big, it seemed bigger than before. Maybe with all of the kids out of the house.

I was anxious about people noticing my weight. I wore baggy clothes and tried to look normal.

The party was just getting started. By this time Jessa had responded to Mama, explaining that she was out and all of the chaos going on at her house. Jill was there too. They are living in their house again.

I pulled Jessa, Jill, Jinger and Joy aside. I was breathing so heavily. I didn't know if I could tell them. They'd been there for me almost my whole life.

"Jana!" Jessa called
"Jana wait" Jill called.
I went into the upstairs girls room which had been Anna's for the last little while. No one was in there. I didn't want it look obvious and that Mama and Pops noticed.

"What did you want to talk to us about?" Jinger asked.