Intoxicated Hearts (Beau Brooks Fanfiction)

Chapter 18

ELLIES POV:

"NO!" I scream. I sit up quickly and look around to find myself in bed. Was it only just a dream?

"Ellie are you okay? I Found you in the bathroom passed out!" I hear Beau say. I look up to see him alive. A sigh of relief washes over me.

"I'm fine," I answer still breathing heavily.

"Ellie what happened?" Beau asks while rubbing my back. I hesitate to tell him but realise that I should since he was in it.

"I was sitting in my bed, then mum came in and said her and dad were going shopping then I had to go to the toilet so I walked into the bathroom. Then I was looking at myself in the mirror and I saw," I suddenly pause and look down at my wrist. Beau sees me glance at my wrist and grabs it.

"OW!" I scream in pain. Beau pulls up my sleeve to see my torn up arm.

"WHAT THE FUCK ELLIE!" Beau yells at me. I quickly pull my wrist away as I start to cry.

"WHY DID YOU DO THIS ELLIE?" Beau yells again.

"WHY ARE YOU YELLING AT ME?" I shout at him.

"BECAUSE YOU SHOULDN’T HAVE DONE THIS!" Beau shouts at me.

"I'LL DO WHAT I WANT!" I shout back.

"NO YOU WON'T! I WON’T LET YOU, THIS IS PATHETIC!" he screams, I can see the veins in his neck sticking out.

"FUCK YOU! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE!" I shout back at him.

"FINE!" he yells and storms out of my house.

Did we just breakup? I sit on my bed and cry uncontrollably. My body is quivering from how upset I am. I can't lose Beau, not now. I start whacking my pillow in anger. I look down at my wrist, it is stinging like hell. Beau must of split it open again when he grabbed me. I wince in pain as I lay on my bed. What have I done.

"Ellie?" I hear someone speak quietly. I look up to see Jai standing at the end of my bed.

"You okay? Beau just like got in his car and drove off," he asks me.

"Do I look okay?" I ask as tears roll out of my eyes. He shakes his head and looks down at my arm. Suddenly he runs over to me and holds my arm.

"Why did you do this?" he asks.

"I don’t know," I whisper crying even harder. Jai wraps his arms around me tightly.

"Ellie it will be okay," he says as he rocks me back and forth. I stay in his arms for about ten minutes until he lets go.

"Come on, I'll clean you up," he says. I nod and take his hand as he leads me to the bathroom. He sits me down on the side of the bath and grabs the first aid kit. As he is dressing my cuts he sighs. I keep looking at his face, he looks genuinely sad. Finally he finishes and looks in the sink at the blade. He picks it up and wraps in a plastic bag.

"I'm taking this," he says. I nod in thankyou as I look up at him. I don’t know why but I start to cry again. Jai leans down in front of me and takes my hands.

"Ellie, Ellie look at me," he says. I look into his eyes and wait for him to speak again.

"Promise me you won't do this again, you're too precious," he says.

"I promise," I answer. Jai smiles and pulls me in for another hug.

"I never want you to hurt yourself, if you ever think about this again you are to call me straight away and I will come to you wherever you are okay?" Jai says.