All My Love

Chapter 83

"Oh shit, you made it!" Louis gapes, hitting the back of my shoulder as he greets me when I finally find him. "I thought for sure you were going to bail." He tells me in a laugh before bringing a joint up between his lips. The music is shitty and is giving me a headache and I've only been walking around this house for ten minutes looking for him or any of our friends for that matter. My eyes have been scanning every short curvy brunette but not one has been the one I'm really looking for. I shouldn't lie, I am terrified to see Becca, I've ignored her for a week. She's going to rip me a new asshole when she sees me. I've tried to prepare myself for the worst but I don't think I really can. "Cute beanie." Louis adds to cover up the silence growing between the two of us and I steal the joint away from his fingers.

"Where is everyone?" I exhale some smoke while I talk before bringing it back between my lips and inhaling. "And whose party is this?" I cough a couple times, handing back the joint and look around at the stoners huddled around a fire pit.

"Who knows, someone from college put it on Facebook but I swear to God that I saw a girl that looks exactly like Olivia here earlier." Louis takes the joint away from his mouth and smirks as my eyes go wide.

"What?" I bring my eyebrows together and he nods.

"Out of the house? Shocker." I hear Michael's voice and twist my upper body around to see Michael walking up with his girlfriend.

"Piss off." I say in a laugh. "Hi Natalie." I smile down at the petite girl and she returns one.

"Where's Becca?" She asks out of curiosity and I stuff my hands in the front pockets of my jeans and shrug while looking around.

"I haven't exactly talked to her." I tell Natalie and she frowns.

"Yeah because you've been ignoring her. You've been so fucking weird this week, I thought maybe you guys broke up." Michael buts in and I roll my eyes. "She's called me multiple times asking about your whereabouts and I had nothing to tell her cause I didn't even know myself." He adds and I raise my brows.

"Oh, she's coming with Stella." Louis informs us, ignoring anything Michael just said and I shift uncomfortably. Lovely. Everyone knows Becca and I are together besides Stella, the girl who left the flat because she can't stand seeing my face in every corner of the place. Unless Becca told her already but I highly doubt that considering Stella hasn't been gone for longer than two weeks.

"Don't get any ideas." I throw draggers at the three of them and I watch as Louis tries to hide an evil smile before I harden my stare. "I'm serious, I don't need any drama tonight." I take the joint back and inhale deep with my eyes closed, putting my head back before releasing the cloud of smoke above me.

"You're way passed avoiding drama buddy." Michael says, taking the joint out of my fingers and takes a hit before handing it to Natalie.

"I'm just saying, I don't need a cat fight happening between the two of them. Becca cares too much about everyone's feelings." I say and look over at Louis who seems to be lost in his own world, checking out a brunette across the lawn.

"It's good that she cares about other's feelings." Natalie says and I look down at her.

"Yeah, unlike your heartless self." Michael adds before I can say something back to Natalie. I raise my middle finger and lick my bottom lip, looking down at the ground. Please let tonight go smoothly.

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| Becca |

This whole car drive to this New Years Eve party, I can't stop biting the side of my bottom lip from nerves. I'm kind of scared to see Harry. Not being able to speak to him or see him has made me so incredibly sad but at the same time I understand his distance. It's a lot to process. If I was him, I probably would block the world out for a very long time so it's good he's getting out tonight. Not that he hasn't recently or anything, though I'm not sure.