I Will Always Protect You (Darkiplier fanfic)

ugh. Grounding.

Hey! Yup another note. I think I'm just gonna make a new book full of notes like this for y'all. So then you guys can know what's up. Not sure what to call it, but I'll think of something. I've been gone a while huh? Well I'm grounded. But my parents forgot to take away my tablet so I sneek peeks and stuff. I'm supose to do chores but I'm too lazy. So I do like five things. And then take a nap. Then I stay up for like five hours then go to sleep. And instead of doing chores I do a bunch of crafts and drawings. So I drew some comic pages and made this angel out of wire.
You know how I make up characters to cope with things? Well when my father was shot I felt emotionless. Like nothing mattered or nothing changed. So it was almost like a shield to me. To protect me from going almost crazy and having a mental melt down. I couldn't feel the pain I would have probably felt if it wasn't there. And so my mind called it Angel. A boy who would protect me from such mental harm. I was worried at first. Thinking I was crazy for not feeling anything. Soon I began to accept it. It was protecting me. Not trying to hurt me.
So Angel. A little boy who helps me cope with my emotions.
That's why I have been sleeping for like 14 hours a day. It helps with it. All the sleep just makes you forget the pain. If I were to feel it again. I take a nap. I don't know if this is healthy for my metal and physical state, but I'm going with it. So this was made in Angels honor. For helping me. I spent forever making it. My parents don't get the meaning. But as long as I know I'm happy with it. I think it looks pretty good.
Also. I had the chance to tell Aries, but me being me I backed out. We were alone and we were talking. It was after school. I was walking to the area my aunt picks me up
Me: okay your alone. Just do it. Tell him.
Me: Aries?
Aries: yeah?
Me: what am I doing? Oh crap! You have to do it. But its not like we planned. We don't need a plan! Don't over think it. Just do it! Confess. He just has to know. He doesn't have to feel the same! You'll regret it later.
Me: do you ever miss Calvin? I kinda miss him. He was cool.
Aries: yeah why? Do you like him?
Me: look you idoit! He thinks you like Calvin. Ugh! I don't like him. I like you! Just say it!
Me: no. It's not like that. I just was wondering. I mean you two were very close.
Aries: yeah. He was funny. And we played airsoft a lot.
Me: do you remember when we went ice skating?
Aries: yeah. That wwas awesome. Even if I did suck.
Me: you didn't suck. I sucked. I could barely balance. But you helped me up at least. You even held my hand
Aries: what?
Me: you helllped me get out the rink. I still owe you for buying me food to cheer me up.
Aries: nah its fine.
Me: heh yeah. Everything's fine when your around.

Yeah. So that happened. Oh you wanna know about the ice rink thing? Well you'll have to wait. I'll write that journal thing I guess. So if you wanna hear about my life a little than I'll do it. I know most of you just want me to update this story soon. And I will. Right after I'm finished being grounded. I hope. I have left this story untouched for a while. About half a year. I should really update. Anyways peace out!