How to save a life (Percico/pernico)

Chapter 1- feelings and flashbacks

Nico's pov
I was sitting alone at the docks in the middle of the night thinking why me. My feet dangled over the water slightly but my legs were too short to touch. It's freezing, causing me to shake slightly, but I needed the cold air on my skin. Why am I here in the middle of the night you ask? One reason. Percy Jackson.

His bright sea green eyes, his heroic figure, his kindness. Just. Percy Jackson. Why me? I ask myself again for the billionth time this night. I feel the tears coming but I'm alone so I don't stop them.

I pull my knees up to my chest and start to silently sob. Why am I this disgrace? Why did you make me love someone who doesn't care? Who will never care. Who is a guy!?! The flashbacks began to creep into my mind and it took all I had to stop them. Lets just say I wasn't strong enough.

***Flashback***
"Bianca!" I yell. Laughing as i chase after her on the playground. She turned back and smiled at me, almost running into a few guys from my class. Suddenly, I tripped. Before I could get up, I saw a dark figure standing over me. I started to get up, thinking it was Bianca, but only got pushed back down.
I should have known better. Why would they leave me alone today? It's not different from any other day. I felt a kick to my stomach. "You disgust me. You and all of your kind" the voice said. I just sat there and took it knowing from experience that if I said anything, I'd make it worse. I sat there and took in the group's kicks and insults when I faintly heard someone scream my name. "Nico!" the crowd cleared away and i saw my sister's face hovering over mine. It was the last thing I saw before everything went black.
***end of flashback***

Remembering that she's gone makes me cry even harder. It's nights like this that i miss her the most. She understood. She knew what a disgrace I was and she still loved me. The only one who loved me. Gone. I couldn't save her. I couldn't save my mom. I can't even save myself and I'm not so sure that I want to. I don't deserve saving. I sit there, head in my knees for what feels like forever. Seeing that it was getting light, I was about to shadow travel away even though I was still crying. I come here when I have nightmares. So basically every night. But I always leave before anyone at camp can spot me. I don't like human interaction. As I was about to stand, I felt a presence behind me. "Nico?"
The voice was filled with kindness and concern. It twisted my stomach into the familiar painful knots. I stood up and turned around to meet his sea green eyes. The ones I fell in love with. How the fates love to torture me. I took a deep breath and swallowed.
"Percy.."

A/n: First chapter of my first fanfic. What'd you guys think? Thoughts and opinions would be appreciated. Thanks.