Overcome (editing)

Chapter Eighteen

In the bathroom I had five pregnancy test laid out, five times I've checked and he was there during all of them, now I was peeing on the sixth final one, waiting for the result. Him leaning on the door face down with his arms covering his face as it rested on the door as well while he waits.

It is the longest three mins of my life, one that can change my fate for ever. While he prays that I am indeed pregnant, I am silently praying I am not.

He suddenly bangs so hard on the bathroom door the pregnancy test fell out my hand.

How much longer will it take!... he shouted.

I scamper to pick it up and read it.

What does it say?... he asked.

It says the same as all the rest.... negative.... i whispered.

He started breathing heavily and making a fist as he stares at me.

It hasnt been three months ...i started saying as i got up shaking as i knew what was coming next...you said three mont-

I dont give a FUCK! ....he said as the punch landed in my face. I fell to the ground screaming as he fed my faces with punches on the floor.... you're a fucking mule! You're worth nothing more than a good fuck...he said as he continued.

When he was through i was just silent on the floor, no tears, i just laid there, as i watch my blood on his knuckles and his shirt, i realized, I am better off dead.

It is pointless i try and fight, if i ran he would be only a matter of time before he finds me and i dont want him messing with my brothers due to me angering him.

Thats what i heard happen to Clarissa, when she tried to run from him suddenly her family home that held her grand mother suddenly exploaded. Her grandmother was the only living relative she had.

No i cant have that, there is only one thing left to do, i need to end it with me.

As soon as he left the room i crawled for my bag pack and got a paper and pen.

I sat in the bathroom with my back against the bath tub while drops of blood fell on the paper i wrote:

Dear Ryan & Rishaad

I know you wont understand why i did this, as far as you know i am happy but honestly i am not. I am sorry i didnt get to keep my promise please dont hate me but i cant live like this anymore. Demand that mom tell u what she did, or talk to kyle if she wont, be careful of her, she is not well. Please keep strong and dont blame yourself, finish school and stay out of trouble. Make me proud, love you bros....my lil devils.

Rihanna

Dear kyle

I am so stupid. So fucking stupid, why did it take me so long i dont know and it hurts because now we will never get the chance to be together as how i so desperately want to right now.

Please know that you were everything to me, my vitamin D :) dont blame yourself, you did everything perfect. You made me happy when everything else was going wrong. I appreciate you so much and i know i never told you and i am so sorry for that but i love you Kyle Benson, i Rihanna Shaw love you with all my heart.

Keep my ring forever and bury me in your necklace.

Dear mom

You did a very, very awful thing. You are a terrible mother and you deserve to be punish for what you did to me and what you have subjected me to.

But i forgive you, be a better mother to the boys please. After me they will need you, you failed with me but you can have redemption through them and despite it all... i still love you.

I folded all three leters and place them back in my bag pack. I went into the kitchen and got the knife, then i went back in the bathroom and slowly peeled my clothes off. I turn the shower on and fill the tub up and went and sat inside

Lord, forgive me.... i said and then i slit my wrist.