A Different End

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

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XXXXA Different End XXXX

Coming up from my crouch I stood up with my hands at my side.

"Come on, let's talk."

I looked at him waiting as he collected himself. Half a minute later he landed near me. I started to walk; I heard his foot steps behind me. I took a deep breath of the fresh letting it clear my thoughts. I kept my face blank of emotion as I crossed my arms against my chest hugging the fringed hemmed plaid cape I had worn to keep myself warm. I let my eyes wander the forest letting my mind appreciate the beautiful details I was able to see with my enhanced eyesight. The trees were greener, the ground was moister and the rain was even colder, and the grass seemed so much more detailed. I was even able to hear the small squeaks that my sneakers made against the dewy weeds and plants.

If I had been human, the silence that had hanging in the air around us would have been more awkward, and I would have spoken already. But I didn't. I wanted him to speak first for once. He told me he wanted to talk to me. I had everything and nothing to say to him.

"You've… changed." I heard him say quietly, effectively breaking the silence.

I sighed, "Time does that. You've been gone for 6 years Edward. What did you expect to find?"

He had stopped and I took a couple steps in front of him my eyes on the ground. I bent down as I my eyes lingered on a fallen tulip. It was small, the ruffled pedals reaching the edges of my palm. I picked it up. It was pearl white on the inside but the tips were dark red as though someone had dipped the edges in a cup of blood. I handled it delicately in my hand as I heard him speak again.

"Not this. Bella, I left so that you could live your human life. Not to find some other monster," He began, - I felt my eyes flash to his feeling deep anger begin to grow in me as he continued, "Bella you promised me- nothing reckless. How could you?" He said his eyes disappointed and hurt.

My heart felt heavy. Rage tore through me like wild fire.

"How could I? How could you? You were the one who promised me you'd never leave! You broke it-"

He cut me off, "For your own good, Bella, you have to understand that- this was all for you-"

I returned the favor, "Shut up. Just shut and let me speak." I began swallowing heavily fighting back my tears. He did what I said. I took a moment and looked upwards away from him. Tears were trying to break through my emotionless wall. I regained my composure and looked back at him. "You told me that it would be like you never existed. You made an impossible promise."

"Every day I remembered. Everything we had. And it hurt. It hurt so much. The pain was killing me." I said breathlessly tears leaking out as I remembered the darkest parts of my past. "I was broken. You broke me. And I had every right to do whatever I wanted to do with myself-because your promise was bullshit. You existed, you where in my life and we were in love. I loved you so much..." I stopped and took another deep breath, "…to point I was weak. You made me weak, but I didn't see that." I felt as though I was talking to myself. I wasn't even looking at him. I was staring past him remembering how I had felt every day.

How I felt worthless, and not good enough for anybody. How I felt that gaping hole in me that wouldn't go away, how I wouldn't get any relief or numbness even in my sleep. It was always there when I would wake up…when I would go to school or work... The pain was always there reminding me of him.