You Can't Love Him

30

I patiently wait at the cafe for Noah. He was 30 minutes late but I wasn't mad. I actually was hoping he wouldn't show up and we could forget about whatever he wanted to talk about. That text didn't sound like my Noah. That sounds like Noah from a couple months ago.

I hear a noise come from the door. Someone had entered. I decided to look down. I hoped that it was not him. Please don't be him. I couldn't shake the feeling that something is wrong. Something is most definitely wrong.

'Please don't be him...'

"Emmie,"I hear Noah call my name. I squeeze my eyes shut and then open them. I slowly look up.

Noah sat in front of me. He didn't look very good. His hair was all messy and he had bags under his eyes. Did he not sleep last night?

"Hey."

"Hey."

"Are you okay?" I ask. I reached over to grab his hand but he pulled away quickly. I felt a pang of hurt rush through me. I knew this couldn't be good. He was breaking up with me wasn't he.

"Look Emmie. I need you to listen." He says calmly. I just nod.

"I don't know how to say this but, we need to break up," hi voice is calm. Well, that was blunt.

I felt my heart shatter into pieces. What is happening? Everything was good a few days ago when we went on our date. Did he resize he didn't want me anymore?

"I-I don't understand?" Tears threaten to pour out. Don't cry Emmie. At least not in front of him.

"I just can't do this." He sighs.

"But everything was fine." I whisper.

"It's too hard. I kind of feel like I'm just leading you on. I mean don't get me wrong I like you. I just can't see this ever working with me." He was being so blunt. Was he not upset at all?

"So you don't even want to try anymore? I don't want us to end Noah. We can make this work."

"We can't! I'm going back to Australia! We can't do this because I don't think I'm ever coming back!" Noah shouts. A few people turned and looked at us. I shush him and wait for everyone to look away.

"You're leaving," I think my heart stopped. I can't feel it anymore. "When."

"In three days," he answers. "I need to go back as soon as possible. I can't wait any longer."

I wipe away a few of the stray tears and looked him in the eyes. He looked unfazed but I knew that was an act. Cold Noah is only an act when it comes to me. Something is off.

"Will you at least say goodbye before you leave."

He just stared at me for a moment and then nods. The conversation between us ends. Neither one of us knew what to say.

I felt like I was in pain. Is this what a broken heart feels like? I thought I felt that when I only liked him but that wasn't heartbreak. No, this was more painful. I felt like my chest was on fire.

"I'm going to go, I have somethings I need to take care of." I don't say anything. I hear him sigh and push in his chair.

"I'll see you in three days." He mumbles and then walks away.

My heart kept telling me to run after him but my body wouldn't move. Tears kept slipping down my face, my vision was blurry and my eyes burned.

There was no reason to go after him. No matter what I say or do, he's going to leave. It would be selfish of me to try and stop him anyways. He must be going back for his brother.

"Excuse me miss, are you okay?" A barista comes over.I quickly wipe away the tears and stand up.

"Yes I'm fine thank you." I keep my head down and leave the building.

Once I got home, I imediantly started walking to my room. Before I could make it, I ran into someone. I looked up to see Drew.

"Emmie what happened?" He asks worried.

All of the sudden I grab onto him and cry into his shirt. "Why is he leaving me?" I whisper through my sobs.

Drew hugs me tightly. "It's okay Em." He whispers. I sob a bit louder. He lightly pats my back to try and calm me down.

After a while I let go and went into my room. I laid down on my bed and stared up at the ceiling. My phone had gone off multiply times, but I didn't feel like moving. I felt numb.

"E! Open the door!"Jocelyn?

"It's unlocked."

The door opens and four people come in.

"E, you're a mess." Jocelyn says.

"Thanks." I respond.

"Have you ate anything, do you want me to go get you something?" She asks.

"Not hungry.

-Jocelyn-

"E, you need to eat." I tell her. She still doesn't move or quit looking at the roof.

"He such an idiot.." Will says behind me.  I knew he was referring to Noah. He's right though, he is an idiot.

"Aaron will you get my bag out of your car." I had packed a bag for me. I planned on staying here for a while. I knew E would react like this.

"Yeah, I'll be right back." He leaves the room.

"I called Noah but he didn't pick up." Collin huffs.

"He's leaving." I hear E whisper through a few sobs.

"I'm going to find him." Will shakes his head and walks out of the room. Maybe he can knock some sense into his best friend.

Now it was just Collin, E, and I. Aaron joined us after a while with my bag.

"Here's you laptop, E. Why don't you write something." I slide her laptop towards her.  She looks down at it and then grabs it.

A smile forms on my face.  E opens it and looks at the screen. She stares at it for a while and then closes the laptop.

My smile falls. I grab the laptop and open it. I noticed she had set the background as the picture of her and Noah cuddling when Aaron was in the hospital.

I sigh. Good job Joc. Why didn't you check the laptop before handing it to her. Stupid, stupid.

I noticed it was getting late so I told the boys to go home. I sit on the bed next to E.

"Why are you still here." She ask.

"I'm not leaving my best friend when she's feeling like this. I'm going to be here for you."