-the butterfly chronicles pt.1

f o u r

Second turn into minutes,
Minutes turn into hours .

Just in that time span ,so many idiosyncratic things can change just in an instant.
Days have passed and now have changed into weeks. Now its time to go back to hell.

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Who am I who am I, when I don't know myself.
Who am I , who am I -

I stopped my phone alarm before it played the best part of the song which I regret. I slowly unraveled myself from my blanket burrito .

(A/N IT'S WHEN YOU ROLL YOUR SELF IN YOUR BLANKETS LIKE A BURRITO)

A soft knock on my door made me realise I still had to do my morning routine .

"Honey , wake up. Theo just called and said he is going to take you to school. So hurry up won't you. Love you." My mom said outside the door.
"M'kay mom, love you too." I replied in a tired voice.

Ever since I went to hospital a month ago everyone around me ,well people who care about me, has been handling me like fragile glass. And it is so annoying because I can't handle the 'spotlight'. Especially from Theo. Who is constantly trying to talk to me everyday since the day in hospital when I was having a good day. So, technically I told him we will just say 'Hi' to us in the hallways. That's it. And only that.

Checking the time , I realised I had to still do my morning routine. I went to go take a warm , quick shower and rushed to apply one coat of mascara along with with my watermelon chapstick.
Rushing to get dressed, I picked my Brooklyn sweatshirt,a pair of leggings and my galaxy vans.

Slowly jogging down the stairs ,I grabbed my penny board and rode to school instead of catching a ride with Theo, which would draw a lot of unnecessary attention towards me and especially us together.

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Walking through the school corridors was a mission.
People staring at me. Whispering away rumours about me. Pointing.

I couldn't help but over hear a couple of the 'whispers' that they were saying among themselves.

'I heard that she was in hospital cause she had a drug overdose'

'Probably was gone to attempt suicide'

'Ugh the bitch is back'

It hurts to hear these things,but I could care less right now 'cause I just want to catch up on all the work I missed.
Reaching my locker , I took out all my books and gym bag for the periods before lunch which was English,German & Gym.

Across the hall I saw my best friends running towards me screaming ,'Best friend!!' Towards me.
I was trapped in a group bear hug , which almost made me breathless.
"Hey guys, I missed ya'll so much!!!! But can we please go to class quickly 'cause I don't want to be late on my second first day of school." I told them.
"Kk. Let's bounce ya'll"

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English

I sat in my normal seat at the back of our class while I waited for Mrs. Holmes to greet us.

"Good morning class, I would like to welcome back ,Hope Rivers. Since she was in hospital for our month. Hope, please tell us how are you?"

"Hey ya'll. Yes , I was in hospital for a month cause my lungs gave up on me. I'm still recovering but yeah , I'm fine thanks. " I said in a quiet but audible voice.

" Thank you Ms.Rivers foe sharing your story. And thank you for coming to school for your own good. So happy your back. Now class , hand in your assignments." Responded in a cheery voice.

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English and German was a blur ,but Gym was a slow,distraught time because Amber and her posey decided to make my day ever so jolly . Note the sarcasm.

For gym class, I was told not to do anything for the whole year because of my hospital mantra by Coach Burkes. But clearly Amber didn't approve of that idea.

She got the cheerleader squad to do a cheer for me , which obviously is not going to be phenomenal.

'Hey Hope, you over there
We just wanna say,
You ' re a bitch
So, go die in a ditch!
Go ooo Hooopee!!'

Everyone cheered except for Coach,Theo and my best friends.
Me being my easily hurt self , I ran out of gym and left the school grounds for the rest of the day.

My phone kept ringing for 5 hours straight. And from mostly one specific number. Theo's.
Eventually I answered his phone call only because I was getting very agitated.

"Hello?"
"Hey Hope, are you okay?? I have been calling you the whole day!"
"I'm ok,alright? Just please leave me alone for a while. K bye."
"WAIT!! Before you hang up,I'm coming over."
"No. Don't . Hello? Hello??"

After he hung up, I just sat on my bed and just replayed the half of my days events causing me to cry.

Tears and tears just kept on flowing put of my eyes,like a waterfall. Till I felt a pair strong arms wrap around me in a hug.
Whoever the person was, rocked me back and fourth while strangled cries came out of my mouth.

"Shhhh , it's alright . It's okay" the person said to me in a soothing voice.

After a couple of minutes I finally quieted down to thank the person that was there . I looked up to see the one and only , Theo Montana.

"Um, sorry about your shirt. And thanks for being a shoulder to cry on..."
"It's alright, I'm just glad and happy I was here for you." He said in a gentle voice.
"Thanks. And just thanks for trying even though I pushed you away." I tried apologising.
"It's alright. Can I try something real quick,but if I do it I will need you to close your eyes" He asked unsurely.
"Um, alright"

Slowly I could feel his body heat approach mine and his minty breathe on my face.
His lips pressed on my lips ever so gently like I'm a diamond.
And to my surprise,I responded to the kiss 'cause I have a slight crush on him.

Hold up?!?!? We are kissing !!

I pushed him away from me and ran to my en suite bathroom. Sliding down my door, I slowly started to cry because I messed up.

Light footsteps left my room and the last sound I heard was the front door slamming shut.

I'm a failure that's why I messed up.

A fail. ..

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