*Aisling's Point of View*
I made my way solemnly to the living room. The mere idea of maintaining proper posture was enough to make me cringe. The high I was priorly on had worn off, leaving me numb. That's often how the majority of my days pass, high and then crashing into a state of nothing.
I fell into the grasp of the couch, grateful for its warming touch. I propped my legs upon the coffee table, which I am sure caused my mother to shift in her home 6 feet under ground.
The thought of my mother, the events that took place in her last few months of life, and the words she spoke to me with her last given breath brought me out of my numb state. I was then taken in by the darkness of my mind. I didn't dare to let a tear slip down my rosy cheeks. I would not let my mind have the satisfaction of breaking down.
However, I gave in and let my body sink down into the blue. I was submerged in a sea of violent thoughts. Towards others? - no. It was merely towards myself. I knew the only way to forget was the heroine in my room.
I ran - my short legs carrying me as fast as I could. I charged into my bedroom, digging through the contents of my dresser drawer. Then, there it was. The beautiful substance already prepared to inject in my veins. My body ached for that one taste. As I pulled up the sleeves of my oversized sweater, I hurriedly punctured myself with the needle, instantly feeling relieved. The thoughts of my mother's death due to her battle with lung cancer fleeted my mind, and I was taken in by the only family I had left - drugs.
It wasn't enough this time. I still remained in my state of tears and loneliness. When did my life become this messed up? When did I resolve my problems with another? WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE ME WHO ENDED UP LIKE THIS?
I broke down, letting the blue consume me as I curled up in the floor.
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