Loved You First

Chapter 3 - Letter?

Zayn POV

After that we sang 'Loved you first' 

"Girl, it should be me driving to your house knocking on your door kissing you on the mouth” I sang never breaking eye contact

“Holding on your hand dancing in the dark 'Cause I was the only one who loved you from the start” Liam sang then pointed right at her

 “But now when I see you with him, it tears my world apart” Harry ran by and gave her a thumbs up

“The first touch, the first kiss, First girl to make me feel like this Heartbreak It's killing me I loved you first, why can't you see?” I sang putting all the emotion I could into it. I loved her!

I looked over at her and she was wiping tears from her cheek. I think she finally got what I meant how I felt how much I loved her. 

We finished our show and we ran off and I ran straight to Evangeline. She was still crying, I grabbed her and hugged her close and kissed her cheek. She pulled away from me and asked "what the hell are you doing Zayn? I can't do this!"

Then she walked away she didn't say where she was going she just took off.  Liam came up beside me and said “just give her a moment Zayn she'll come around" 

"but what if she doesn't?"

Evangeline POV

I couldn't breathe I needed to leave so I grabbed my things and left. I didn't know where I was going I was just driving around town. I think I drove for two hours before I ended up here…

I was at Zayns flat. 

He opened the door and looked at me he was a mixture of sad and happy. He just stared at me. 

"Ang what are you doing here?" 

"I don’t know, I was driving around town and then I ended up here" I said looking into his eyes

"Here come in its freezing outside" he said grabbing my hand pulling me into his flat

. 

I walked in the door and turned to look at him " Zayn what's this about?"

He went into the kitchen and poured us a drink and said " I love you Ang, I've been in love with you since grade 10"

I sat on his kitchen counter and said "No you haven't Zayn you knew how I felt about you in high school but you hooked me up with Roger I wrote you that letter and I saw you and Roger laughing about it!"  Isaid in one quick breath. He handed me the glass of Vodka he pour and i threw it back in one gulpand slammed the empty glass back on the counter.

"You never wrote me a letter Ang" 

*Fall 2008* 

Evangeline POV

I had spent all night writing a letter to Zayn telling him everything I had been hiding for a while now. It was two pages long and I even decorated the top of the page in red and blue spelling his name. In my third class I asked to be excused so I could go hide it in his locker. I was so nervous this letter was everything. 

Roger POV 

I was wondering the halls when I peeked around a corner and saw Evangeline stick something in Zayns locker. I watched her walk back to class then I went to Zayns locker and opened it. I rummaged around and a letter fell to my feet. I opened it and it read:

 "Zayn

I've been holding this in for over a year now but I can't pretend anymore…. I have strong feelings for you. I’ve decided that I have to tell you…. If you don't feel the same that's fine but I want you to know that this is how I feel. I can't ignore the way I feel... I hope you feel the same I really want to be with you ... I think I love you. 

Love always Evangeline" 

I read that and it pissed me off. I've got feelings for Evangeline always have I've known her longer than him, and oblivious Zayn was going to take her from me? No! I ripped his name off of the top folded it and put it into my locker. 

After our class Zayn and I went to our lockers and when I opened mine the letter fell out. He picked it up and said "well well well what's this Roger a love letter?" he opened it and read it I could tell he was getting upset then he started to laugh right when Evangeline walked out. 

She looked horrified at him laughing it worked out perfectly. 

Zayn POV

That letter was the last thing I even wanted to read. I knew I should've told her ages ago that I liked her but I was scared and now it's too late.  So I started to laugh to hide how upset I was. I waited too long and now she was gone. 

*Present time*

Zayn POV

"You wrote Roger a letter in grade 10"

"No Zayn I wrote you a letter and I watched you laugh reading it" she yelled back at me as she poured more vodka and again drank it in one gulp. I could tell she was stressing out.

"Ang I didn't get a letter Roger did" and then I told her what it said.

"I wrote that letter for you Zayn” She paused “You didn't see your name at the top?" She asked while looking confused 

"The top was ripped" I said standing in front of her rubbing my hand on the knee.

It finally sunk in to our heads. Roger stole the letter and made it look like she wrote it for him. It made me happy to know the letter was for me but pissed at the same time. Roger back then was my best friend. Why would he do that? 

"I can't believe Roger did that" she said sadly as she took off her jumper exposing her bruised neck

“I don’t know Ang I guess he was jealous back then too” I said

She grabbed her long hair and put in a bun atop her head.

I looked at her neck examining it, I could see marks in the back where it looked like he dug his nails into her.

"Ang those aren’t from rough sex are they?" I asked 

She looked at me in shock and slapped her hand on her neck so fast it sounded as though she slapped her self. 

"It's nothing Zayn, we just got a little rough" 

"Oh so then he's got bruises too??" I said angrily

I grabbed her hand and moved it away, why would she let him do that to her. I got closer standing between her legs to get a better look. She smelled so good, I rubbed my fingers over it and she backed away in pain. 

I stepped back and poured us more Vodka; we kept talking, drinking and telling each other everything we’ve been hiding for years.

I told her that my first kiss was my best kiss; she smiled knowing she was my first.

She told me when we would share the bed, when we were younger, sometimes she would grab my arm and put it around her. She didn’t know, but I knew she did that. I didn’t mind, I loved it.

Next thing I knew I was carrying Ang to the bedroom kissing her neck with her legs wrapped around my waist. We were engulfed in so much passion, passion that had been built up for years. I wanted to stay in the moment forever, just me and Ang, nothing else, just this.