The ones who made it better

Nowhere is somewhere to me

Biancas pov.
We made it to the studio. I was tired and Billie kept feeding me water.
"Sorry we're late guys."
"About time we were about to get a search party." The producer guy said this laughing I sat down and layed down going to take a nap.
I closed my eyes.
I heard Billie singing it always suddenly calmed me like he'd been doing it for years.
I closed my eyes and drifted into a sleep.
When I woke up Billie was Still singing.
"But there's nothing wrong with me this is how I'm supposed to be in the land of make believe that don't believe in me..."
I rubbed my eyes the new song was great.
"Ba-Bill"
"Shhhhhhhh"
I rolled my eyes at one of the producer guys. I sat up opened the door and went outside. Another cigg. I pulled it out and lit it up. It was calming I've never had 2 in a row. I tried it and I felt 100% more relaxed.
I sat against the giant brick building thinking. I saw Billie come out.
"Hey kiddo, come on we need to get your stuff, buy dinner and head home."
"O-okay"
We drove off I looked through the consul to look for a CD I finally found one that I couldn't read. I put it in. It was.. I asked Billie he said Foxboro hot tubs. I smiled they were so good!
We got my stuff and got dinner then came home.
"BIANCA"
I got scared and hid behind Billie but it was Joey.
"You okay?"
I shook my head and we went to the table.
"How was Mikes?"
"Interesting"
My stomach started turning in knots. I felt sick I didn't wanna be with anyone right now.
"I'm kinda tired I think I'll go to my room."
"Oh-okay"
They said in sync and I went upstairs and laid down starring at the ceiling fan. When I woke up I was in Billies arms on the floor.
"What happened?"
"I came in here you were having a panic attack in your sleep and was started to roll off the bed I ran in because I heard yelling."
"Well I'm fine I don't even remember what happened."
"Stop doing this."
"Doing what Billie?" I was hurt.
"Trying to kick me out of your life and becoming distant"
"I'm not but if you want I can become that way?"
"No I just... don't wanna lose you."
"Billie you're never gonna lose me okay?"
"I'm scared to lose you like I lost my best friend okay?!"
Billie stood up and went to the closet he opened the little panel at the top and grabbed something. He handed it to me it was a piece of paper and a picture in a box.
It was Billie and this girl, his best friend he had showed me before.it was her uh suicide note with it.
"Dear family, the people I call family include Ollie, Billie, Tim, Mike, and Tre' the Armstrong family, the Wright family, and the Pritchard family. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the worry I cause. I can't live in constant fear. I can't live with getting and wanting help everyday. I'm sorry it has to be tonight. I couldn't sleep. I wasn't hungry. I couldn't feel it, I couldn't feel as I stayed up and took that knife to body. I'm sorry it had to be tonight. I'm sorry I'm doing this in the first place. Billie Joe Armstrong, my best friend, I'm sorry. I'm sorry you're reading this. I really hope you call that girl finally, and I really hope you have the chance to become someone successful, you have something. I had you guys. I hurt you all. It's my time to go. I want my happiness back. Thank you all for being there and thank you Billie, Mike, and Tre' you were the ones who made it better, you'll see me again one day on the other side, Thalia."
I stood up setting the box on the bed next to Billie.
"Why'd she go and do it? That's fucking nuts Billie I won't kill myself I've tried I've walked around school with fucking rope burns on my neck."
I opened the window lit a cigarette and set it on the ash tray, didn't wanna stink up the house.
"See the whole reason to do this was to help a kid struggling, I couldn't help my best friend I had a struggling life I wanna help you not just to help you but I care about you.."
"Billie."
I sat at the window leaning against it the sun was starting to come up.
"I've found my real dad, not just my dad but my dads I know it's not been long buy you guys are like dad's to me. Ya know I may get my moments but I know suicide doesn't end the pain."
"I know,... it passes it on to someone else"
I put out my cigarette. My stomach churning and my head burning. I looked in the mirror. My eyes looked red.
"I'm freezing."
I shut the window and cuddled into the blankets Billie hugging me for what seems like forever and I fall fast asleep.
Dream pov.
"Hey"
I jumped from the bed seeing this Thalia girl.
"Come with me" she giggled.
I saw Billie making breakfast he kissed Adrienne. Thalia giggled and said
"Get a room you derp faces." They didn't hear her.
"Bianca is perfect, Adie! she's like a mini me almost love the kid a lot though."
Thalia giggled and I saw Tre' Cool with his son and Tre' said
"Mike wants us to come to dinner tonight-" cut off in the sentence we were at Mikes.
"Britt I'm gonna ask Bills tonight and her." Suddenly we were at Thalias gravestone then brought back to see a young Billie he was crying red pink eyes and suddenly I was Thalia.
"Billie I didn't mean to I DIDN'T MEAN TO BILLIE BUT I CAN'T TAKE IT BACK. Billie I'm with you." Suddenly back at Thalias grave. She looked at me angry.
"You're me. You can't hurt Billie again. He was our best friend....you have to realize who you are on your own. DON'T HURT THE ONES WHO MADE IT BETTER."
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I woke up I couldn't breathe. I was light headed. I felt like someone tore my lungs out. They burned. Like a fresh lit fire.
"BILLIE!" Adrienne screamed. Billie ran upstairs and saw me.
"Oh gawd Adie her lips are blue!"
He called an abulance. I was in and out of it. I saw Billies dad next to him telling me to breath yelling at me to breathe and so was Thalia. Adie screamed and I was standing by Billie.
"No, no, no, NOO wake up Bianca come on breathe" I frantically yelled this at myself! Both people were pushing me back to me what was I were was I? Everything went dark and i felt dizzy.
I popped awake in a bed yelling the word Dad. A nurse came in. She checked well everything and looked angry. Suddenly I felt dizzy again and everything went black.
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Billies pov.
I sat patiently in the waiting room with Adie squeezing her hand. What was wrong with Bianca exactly. No one knew. None of my pills were missing. I had no idea. I was worried. Suddenly the doctor came out.
"Mr. And Mrs. Armstrong your daughter has had a blood problem."
My heart dropped. My first instinct was to tell Mike. My head started instantly hurting.
"She has had a condition where her blood stopped flowing out of no where, all in all her heart stopped. We'll have to look deeper into the matter. We believe it was a panic attack that had caused her heart problem."
Mike has had the same thing. I walked out instantly scared for this little girl.
I called Mike.
"Hello Bills?"
"Yeah, we're at the hospital, just found out Bianca had the same heart condition as you and well her heart stopped from it so we called an abulance."
"Okay Bil-lie" his voice got shakey.
"I'll be there ASAP."
The call ended and I sat next to Adie again squeezing her hand. Joey was supposed to come by with Jake soon. They went out, didn't want worry on them.
Bianca pov.
I layed in that ugly bed when I heard my mother's voice.
"YOUR DAD DID THIS TO YOU HE'S A PIECE OF SHIT."
I rolled my eyes instantly.
"You're stupid go away."
"Me? I'll fucking haunt you til the end of time."
"ANDDDDDY" I screamed and suddenly lost my voice and my heart was pounding in my chest.
He was with Thalia next to my bed.
"Breathe" they said in sync. I tried it happened, I was fine. I looked up realizing it was all sort of a dream. I spun my hospital bracelet on my wrist.
I was gonna change my life, I needed to once I get "fixed" I'll have to do something. I'm just stuck in nowhere.