heal me ➣ taegi

25: I want to go

After the CT scan they had performed on Yoongi and Taehyung both, they had gone back to their own rooms. They didn't run into each other coming or going.

Taehyung shared his room with an older man in his fifties and he was less than thrilled. All the old man did was yell for the nurses and tell them he left his keys in the ignition.

Taehyung tried to get some studying done, with indirect help from Jungkook. He'd bring his books and notes that the nurse would bring up, but every time Jungkook asked to see him Taehyung would play dumb and tell him that he didn't know why he couldn't come in.

Yoongi felt extremely hopeless today. He tried getting out the day before again, but they caught him, again.

Truth is, Yoongi has stirred up some questions for the doctor taking care of him. He had him take a psych test and he ended up failing which was kind of ironic.

His doctor decided he'd let him take it again later since it could have just been a bad time for Yoongi. He had taking something similar before, but passed so it was kind of strange that he'd show signs now.

Yoongi's mom refused to believe Yoongi had any mental problems and shrugged them off telling Yoongi to do the same. Telling him it might effect his future.

Today, Yoongi's mom wasn't here and neither was his best friend. Jihyun had came the other day to make sure Yoongi was alright and then left after Yoongi had a breakdown.

Hoseok was sitting in the corner of the room when Yoongi got back, keeping his promise that he would stay until he got back. Yoongi wished he broke that promise though.

He was back in bed with the medicine streaming through his veins.

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"You're Min Yoongi's...boyfriend..?" The doctor raises a brow then shakes his head looking at his clipboard. Taehyung had gone to Yoongi's doctor to find out what's wrong with Yoongi and why he was still in the hospital because he was worried.

"Yes, I am dude. Okay? So can you tell me why he's still here? He should be home by now." Taehyung gritted his teeth as the doctor took in his appearance. He had dark circles under his eyes and disheveled hair.

"Fine. The surgery was a success, the first half of it. We drained the blood and everything, but we couldn't exactly pinpoint the source. It looks like something is blocking his vocal cords and it might be painful for him to speak. We'll have to perform another surgery on him to be able to stop the problem completely."

"To be able to? What do you mean? What if you can't? Will he die?!" Taehyung gripped the doctors shoulders as he spoke irrationally.

"Well, there is always risks with surgery, but we'll all try our best," the doctor says optimistically, but secretly he wanted to get the hell out of there.

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Hoseok backed away against the wall, not knowing how to calm Yoongi down.

He had pulled the IV from his arm and threw a vase that was sitting at his bedside against the wall shattering it into pieces.

"Y-Yoongi, please stop.." Hoseok whispered afraid Yoongi would get mad if he heard.

Jihoon was sitting outside the room, just in case Yoongi came out, but couldn't hear a thing.

Yoongi sobbed quietly and pulled at his hair harshly before jumping off the bed.

Yoongi strides over to another breakable object and slammed it against the door. The purple poppies, white roses, and yellow dandelions decorated the floor.

Yoongi wanted to scream, he really did, but something, literally something, kept stopping him, and it drove him absolutely insane.

Yoongi runs across the room to Hoseok, who is standing shocked by the window. He wants to leave this place, but the doctors say he can't.

"Hoseok, I want to go," Yoongi whispered, his voice barely there. He fisted at the younger's shirt.

Hoseok let out a shaky breath. "Yoongi, you know I'd do anything for you, but you can't go. There's something wrong."

Hoseok watches as his words reach Yoongi and by the look of his face, Yoongi did not like what he heard.

His face was turning red, from trying not to explode.

"Yoongi, calm down. Don't yell, it's dangerou-"

"I want to go," he says again, only slower trying to remain patient. He gives Hoseok a deadly stare before opening the window and standing on the ledge.

Hoseok's eyes widened and he quickly grabbed Yoongi's arm, pulling him back in. But Yoongi pulled harder.

"Yoongi! Stop!" Hoseok yelled and tried to reach for Yoongi, who was on the outside now, only hanging onto the window.

Yoongi looks down at all the people walking around normally. They didn't look like ants, but they were still small.

"I want to die, Hoseok. I don't want to be here anymore." Yoongi looks back at Hoseok who's in tears now, then looks back at the ground.

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Tbh I'm kind of confused myself