Eng.Version - One Moment More

Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Sixteen – I Didn't Deserve To Live

(Ayaat's Pov)

Wahid's funeral was held that same day. Many people hadn't known he was my brother, how would they know, I never told anyone. The day was quiet and lonesome. Nobody bothered me, nobody said anything. Atif would come to check me here and there asking if I was okay. Me, being who I was would always say yes I'm fine. But really I wasn't. I wanted to run away and hide somewhere. I wanted to die with him. I didn't deserve to live. I should have been dead! I should be the one not living in this world.

I curled myself on the bed and cried.

I felt hands wrapped around me and I hiccupped as I looked up at Atif.

He poured me a glass of water and brought it to my lips helping me drink. After drinking I felt a bit of relief. I rested my head against Atif's chest as he held me tight in his arms and he whispered "Ayaat, why didn't you tell me your bother was in a comma?"

"Why do you hide so much pain, I always remain quiet when you never say anything because I know a girl needs time and that is what I am giving you time so you can trust and tell me what is really going on in your life, all the pain and darkness you carry inside of you. You had such a big secret your own brother was in a comma and you never bothered to tell me. I'm not just your husband Ayaat, I want to be your friend who is there when you need someone. I know it's hard to let out things inside of you but keeping it in isn't the right way. And I know right now I should not say these things but I just can't see you in this much pain."

Listening to his words only made me cry harder against him.

"Shhhh," he spoke holding me closer

I don't know when but I fell asleep in his arms.

(Atif's Pov)

"Atif" my mother spoke getting my attention.

"G Ammi" I replied.

"Ayaat, is she alright, how is she doing?"

"Yeah she is settled at the moment and sleeping soundly."

"I didn't know she had a brother."

"Ammi you didn't know, I being her husband didn't even know this and I'm sure there are heaps more things I do not know about her yet."

"So know those things Atif, she is your wife now and it's your responsibility to be there with her, to support and love her through her hard times."

"Ammi you have no idea how much I have tried to know everything about her, she doesn't tell me, she probably doesn't trust me or doesn't feel as though I am capable to share her pain."