Eng.Version - One Moment More

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty – Happiness You Deserve

(Ayaat's Pov)

I opened my eyes to see Atif sitting beside me, my hands in his hands. He face was held down but I could see from the looks of it, he was so tired and exhausted like he hadn't slept or eaten in days. He lifted his head and met my eyes and instantly a change of expression appeared upon his face, an expression that was not readable.

"Ayaat, OH THANKS ALLAH, YOU'RE AWAKE!"

He brought my hands to his lips and kissed them.

"Ayaat, you scared the life out of me, you have no idea of how worried and afraid I was to lose you. When I saw you-" he closed his eyes and cringed and there was so much pain written on his face and I knew what I had done was wrong, I hurt him a lot, he opened his eyes and smiled at me and continuing to speak "when I saw you I was just speechless and angry at myself, I couldn't see you like how you were, I wanted to curse myself for not taking proper care of you, for allowing sadness, darkness and depression to take over you. I felt like I had failed as a husband to keep you happy and I just wanted to hurt my-"

"Atif-" I begin to say.

"No, you won't say a word, from today, no no, from this moment onwards I will not allow you to move away from my sight. How did you touch and decide to harm my wife, my life, my love? Ayaat, you are my life Ayaat, you are my wife so be free with me. I understand you have pain hidden inside of you, I know you are suffering from inside but I don't know how to stress in words that I am here for you, I am a great listener and I will always listen and stand with you. You know Ayaat it hurts knowing that I am here with you but you don't tell me anything, instead of sharing your pain, you were going to hurt yourself. Did you not think once about me, what I would have done, what would have happened to me if I lost you! You don't know how much you mean to me and I realize that it's only been a while since our marriage has commenced and you're not fully comfortable or neither have you adjusted enough with me to share things but you know Ayaat since you have come in my life, everything has changed, I've been looking at my life in such a different angle that I myself cannot imagine. Ayaat I want to live my life not alone but with you, I want to hold your hand and keep you safe and protected from everything, I want us to be happy together."

I couldn't hold onto the tears I let them out.

"Ho –w- ca-n – y-ou-" I was beginning to say with tears flowing down my face.

"Shh. Ayaat, every tear drop of yours is so precious to me, more than any gold or money, you are so valuable that if I lose you I'll lose my life."

I tried to sit up but Atif said "no don't sit up, stay still, you will take a while to recover."

I was about to say something but Atif's mother entered the room.

"Atif did you-" she stopped mid-sentence when her eyes met mine and she walked quickly over towards me. She bent down and placed a little kiss upon my forehead speaking "Ayaat, my dear, my daughter how are you feeling now," she placed a hand on top of my forehead as though she was checking my temperature.