This Is A Song For The Forgotten.

Chapter 23

It was about 4 days and my ribs were already feeling better.It hurt to walk sometimes. Bret has been very protective and won't let me go outside without him.

Danene was safely at Tyler's house till Danene and Austin can buy a house together. Bret put me on full lock down when I got home 4 days ago. I know he is worried but I'm being smothered a bit.

He won't even touch me at all just kiss my cheek sometimes and occasionally play with my hair.

I'm worried about him. I brushed it off and went downstairs and popped in some ear buds and started to listen to Bullet by Hollywood Undead.

I cooked some food which lured Bret and Tyler down stairs. I kept listening to the song on replay I don't know why I just like it. Bret pulled my ear bud out and kissed my cheek.

Bret went and got the mail and made sure Tyler was watching me. He came back and looked slightly scared.

"What s wrong babe?" I asked. he shook his head and pulled his phone out and checked his Twitter.

Great now he won't tell me anything. I sighed and put my buds back in and laid on the couch and fell asleep to Lost it all .

I dreamt of me on a tall building looking over the edge. Firefighters below and trampolines surrounding them trying to save me. I saw a little kid looking up wondering what the fuss was about .

The little girl reminded me of when I was little. I was always so curious of everything. I then went to the other side of the building and jumped off the edge plumenting to my death. As soon as I hit the ground I awoke and shit forward.

"Shit! That hurt!" Bret heard me and sat next to me checking to see if I was OK.

"I have to talk to you about something Alli." I nodded and gulped hard.

"I think we should take a break." Those words rung through my ears. I nodded while tears welled up.

I went up to his room and started to pack up. Tyler said I could stay with him so I did. He drove me there and the entire time I was trying not to cry .

I had to be strong. Tyler doesn't know what happened just I needed a place to stay. Then I started to think.

is it because the sick bastard raped me and he thinks I'm used? Because I'm actually broken? Is he bored?

I sighed and listened to Bullet once again.

We got to his house and Danene was on the couch. She saw me an automatically hugged me. She took me up to my room then I broke down. I tod her what happened and she was ready to go kill him .

I told her not to.

She left me alone to go get something to eat. opened the window and climbed up to the roof. I brought my knees to my chest and looked at the sunset.

I cried a bit while I was up there too. it was getting dark so I got back into my room. I buried myself under the covers to hide my shame.

I then got a text

Bret: Hey I know you are probably sad or mad but please don't cut.

A:Fuck you! I'll do whatever the hell I want. maybe I'll go and get kidnapped again.

I slammed my phone down and cried some more. I never got a reply . I got a razor out of my eyeliner sharpener and glided it over my skin. I get so much better.

Austin then opened the door and saw what I was doing and automatically rushed to me and ripped the blade away from me and held onto me.

Danene saw the scene and after she comforted me she whipped her phone out. probably to yell at Bret.

Austin held me like I was his little sister who almost died.

Ha! I wish!

I cleaned up and climbed into my bed. He offered to stay but I knew Danene was expecting him so I denied. I laid down and opened twitter.

@Allisonbvb: Love can heal scars but also can rip them back open.

I looked through my calendar. Tomorrow we were recording for our demo. I groaned and pulled the covers over my head.

God life for me sucks!

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Sorry its a crappy chapter I don't have many ideas left and its pissing me off .