This Is A Song For The Forgotten.

Emotions Running Through My Veins

Day of Wretched and Divine Released.

I woke up to a alarm and slipped from Bret's grasp. I got ready and stuff the just so happened to look at my phone and it showed one event on the calendar.

I looked at the calendar and my heart stopped.

I quickly got a pillow from the floor and ran down the hallway and screamed into the pillow yet that didnt help muffle out the sound.

Bret still in his boxers rushed out and so did Tyler who stayed the night before. I looked up and they had 'what the hell?' faces I gave my phone to Bret and he saw the post.

I got up and stole my phone back and rushed into the shower while listening to I am Bulletproof. I weirdly sang along after I got the chorus. After about We Don't Belong I got out and dried myself and got into my outfit.

I was wearing a Black Veil Brides shirt if course and some shorts I did my makeup and put my shoes on and popped my ear buds in and kissed Bret goodbye and Tyler asked if he could get a kiss and Bret slapped the back of his head.

I skipped out the door not eating breakfast because of my episode this morning. I skipped to Danene house and she was wearing a Bvb shirt too. Apparently she's been listening to Wretched and Divine this morning too!

We entangled our arms and skipped to the music store.

I asked my boss if I could put their new album on the speakers to play and she said yes!

Me and Danene kept dancing like idiots.

"Well looks like someone has come out of their shell. "

Chad an inventory guy said to me as he walked up.

" Now that you're out wanna go on a date sometime you're really hot this way. " He winked at me.

" Umm how about hell no. You treated me like shit in high school for being different. And I have a boyfriend who happens to love me. "

" Whatever emo freak. " I was appalled by in so I looked down and saw I was wearing combat boots. I stomped on his toe and put all my weight on it and he yelped in pain.

I smiled and went back to the front desk. I pulled out my journal and drew some things I've been seeing in my dreams like a black rose with barbed wire as the stem and bats with sharp teeth.

It was lunch break so me and her skipped to the nearest cafe and I got some coffee and a donut while Danene got a frappe and half a brownie. We finished up and raced back to the shop and again the shop closed early.

We skipped back to Bret's and I opened the door to hear Bret sobbing. I rushed to our room and he was crying while holding a letter in his hand. He looked up and automatically looked at me in disgust.

" Get the hell out you slut! " He threw my duffle bag at me which had the most of my clothes in.

" What the fucking hell? " He pushed me out and I just started to break down I ran out and jumped off the porch nearing rolling my ankle over but I continued to run to Danene's house. I could hear her running after me.

I opened the door and ran up to her room and threw my stuff down and looked at myself in the mirror.

I saw disgust in myself once again I haven't for about a month. I thought today was going to be a awesome day considering Wretched and Divine got released today. I put on Lost It All and grabbed my eyeliner sharpener from my bag and ran to the bathroom.

I ripped the blade from the plastic black holder and looked at it. It wasn't enough to kill me sadly. I ripped it across my skin and my record had been shattered. I then saw the trash in the corner that i threw a blade in when I was moving out.

By the time I was ripping through the trash like a animal Danene was trying to bust the door down. I found it and made some more cuts. Then I saw Danene had busted the door down. By the time she found me and threw the blade away again I was zoning out.

" Don't quit on me god damnit! " She screamed and tried throwing water on my face to get me to come back and tried to stop the bleeding. I saw a white light and went to it like a moth to a flame.

I was sitting in a black room and noticed I was in my head I saw images. I saw me and Bret kissing. I then saw when my Dad beat me for the first time. I then saw my mom's heart machine thing go flat. I saw when I was about 6 and had a happy family.

But why? Why am i getting these happy and bad memories back?

I heart a beeping noise and tried to pry my eyes open. I did and saw Danene pacing.

I slowly sat up and she hadn't noticed.

" Don't burn a hole in the ground. " Her head snapped to me and she pounced on me hugging me for dear life.

" Don't you ever do that again. " I sighed and remembered.

Suddenly my phone rang out The Legacy which meant CC was calling. I tried to reach for it but Danene got it and answered it.

" Hello? "She said sweetly as I gave her the evil eye.

"She's fine." I was motioning for her to give me the Damn phone!

"Fine here she is. "

" Hello? " I said into the phone.

" WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING ALLI I NEED YOU ALIVE YOU'RE LIKE MY LITTLE SIS! " He yelled into the phone.

" First off how did you find out second thanks for making me deaf and third I am worthless. "

" OK OK OK Alex posted it on his titter and tagged me and the guys since we are on tour and you are not worthless what makes you say that? "

" Bret kicked me out to the streets for the vultures for hell knows what reason and called me a slut. "

" What the hell is wrong him he least their at the hospital in the waiting room. " I looked at Danene and she shook her head.

" No. "

" That ass hole! " I sighed as I heard CC tell the rest of Bvb.

" That's it I'm coming to Dc. "

" No CC think about the fans I'll be fine I've lived through these things before I'll see you whenever your tour comes close. "

" OK fine but if you try to kill yourself I'm running there. "

" OK bye CC. "

" Bye. " The line went dead and I slumped into the bed. I felt like shutting down again. The nurse came in and let me out of this fucking hospital.

I walked to the waiting room and almost got knocked down by four guys.

It was Brandon, Alex, JC and Tyler.

"Thank God your alive!" Tyler squealed.

I smiled and and talked to them a bit then Danene took me home. I got my bag out of Danene's room and went to the guest room. I changed into a old tshirt and plaid sleep pants and went to the Window sill and sat in it.

I watched the sun go down and down not to return til morning. I examined my new scars and felt disgusted in myself. I turned on Lost It All again and replayed it til I fell asleep from exhaustion.

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