When he returned

chapter 7: I meant it

*JENNY'S POV*

I knew i shouldn't of said it as soon as I did. I'm running away again. I didn't want to hurt him, I had to do it. He deserves better, and he knows it. Fuck.

*1 hour earlier*

*JAKE'S POV*

She's been avoiding me all week.

After what you said.

yeah, but she said it back.

good point.

Maybe she just felt sorry for you.

thanks for the boost of confidence.

no problem.

I quickly snap out of my thoughts at the sound of the door. She normally comes back later and leaves early, so I hardly see her. This time I stayed up. Bad idea, because when she sees me she looks annoyed, but that's soon replaced by a forced smile.

"Hey, didn't expect to see you," she walks to the kitchen island and drops her bag on the side, "where's Caleb?"

"He's staying at a friends, he said he told you," I ask her, as she opens the fridge and grabs some yogurt. She turns, looks at me and leans on the island by her elbows.

"oh, god. I forgot," she reaches up and places her hand on her forehead.

"you work too hard, I can work now. I'm perfectly fine, you don't have to work so hard," she lifts her eyes to mine, "why have you been avoiding me?" i ask her, my eyes boring into hers. She sighs, and looks down.

"I'm sorry, i just... i ca-" she's interrupted by my phone ringing. I give her a look of apology and pick it up.

*JENNY'S POV*

"It's my Granddad. He's passed away. We weren't close bu-"

"Go. Your family needs you," i sound way too harsh.

"My mum told me not to come. She doesn't want me to waste time being young. I'm not going unless you do," he's negotiating, shit. This is when the conversation goes downhill.

"Jake, I can't. I've got work and Caleb," i feel so bad doing this right now. He looks hurt, like really hurt. Then his face changes from hurt to anger.

"Caleb can go home, and you can take a weekend off. you've worked non-stop to avoid me, I think they'll understand if you miss a few days. Just please come with me?"

"Fine, and I wasn't avoiding you."

"Then what were you avoiding?"

"A certain conversation, that i think is about to happen," i feel guilty for saying i was avoiding it but it's the truth.

"Which conversation, HUH? THE ONE ABOUT HOW YOU TOLD ME YOU LOVED ME, BUT YOU DIDN'T ACTUALLY MEAN IT? THE ONE WHERE YOU TELL ME YOU HATE ME? THE ONE WHERE YOU SAY YOU DON'T CA-" i cut him off when i run up and hug him tightly.

"I did mean it, I promise. I'm just scared of what might happen if we start dating or if we take this further," i whisper into his neck. His arms then wrap around my waist and just hold me there.

You like this.

no, i don't.

yes you do, tell him.

no because, I don't want to ruin things

DO IT!

"Will you please go on one date with me?" oh shit what do i say to this. He pulls away slightly and leans in.

oh, crap you're scared shitless.

really, I didn't notice.

I quickly pull away and run for the door. I open it and don't bother shutting it. He shouts after me, but i run. I just run as fast as i can. I knew i shouldn't of said it as soon as I did. I'm running away again. I didn't want to hurt him, I had to do it. He deserves better, and he knows it. Fuck. 

I end up sitting on a park bench, all alone. My mascara's all down my face and i look horrific. I reach into my pocket and pull out all the money i have.

£50.

I run to the nearest club and start drinking. I clean up in the toilets before getting smashed.

*2 hours later*

wooooooo. I made a friend. His name is Blake and heeeeeee's sooooooooooooooooooo cool. He paid for alot of my drinks and he's taking me back to his. He says it's just for coffee, but we all know what this mean. Sex. sex. sex. woop woop.

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