They Don't Know About Us

Chapter 24 Harry /

I know it has been a week since my relationship with Gwen started, but for some reason it felt like she wasn't happy in this relationship. Everytime I try to talk to her, she always gives me a small smile and looks at Zayn.

I don't know what to do with her now. Maybe she likes Zayn better than me. What does Zayn have that I don't have? Why can't she love me as much as she much Zayn, or maybe more than Zayn? What does Gwen attract from Zayn? Why? Why can't it be me?

I don't know, but this questions kept on thinking in my head. I've been noticing her lately. How she always looks at Zayn. And I also noticed that she looks at Zayn differently than she looks at me. I really do have a feeling that she really likes Zayn more than me because right now, I'm really hurt. I'm really hurt at what I'm feeling.

"Gwen?" I said when we arrived her house. "Can I ask you something?"

"Sure." She said. "What's it about?" Gwen and I sat down and I looked at her seriously.

"Do you still have feelings for Zayn?" I asked. Gwen looked tense when I asked that question. She actually looked speechless as if she doesn't want to answer it.

"Umm...uh...n-no, Harry. I-I'm with you." She replied.

"Gwen," I said. "You're lying."

"I'm not." She lied, looking down on the floor.

"Gwen, look right into my eyes and tell me the truth." I said. I lift her chin up to make her look at me. Her dark brown eyes made contact to mine.

It took a few minutes when she was looking directly through my eyes. Her eyes started to pool with water. "I'm sorry, Harry." She cried, shutting her eyes. "When I answered you, I thought I really did love you."

"Then why did you answer me?" I asked.

"I thought I love you okay?" She screamed. "I really did. Then when I saw Zayn, it felt like I've broke his heart. And it also felt like...I'm lying to myself." Gwen said. "I tried to love you, I really did. But if I keep this up, I'm not being truthful to myself." She answered. "I'm sorry."

"Tell me Gwen!" I shouted. "What does Zayn have that I don't have?" I asked.

"I don't know." Gwen said. "I'm sorry, Harry. I tried." She stood up and hugged me very tightly. "I love you, Harry, but only as a friend. I hope your not angry."

To be honest, I was really angry. I was angry at Gwen because she didn't love me. I was angry at Zayn because Gwen loves him more than me. Is it that hard to love me? What is so wrong with me and why is it so hard for someone to love me?

Without saying good bye, I left Gwen's house and hopped into my car. When I came home, I screamed as loud as I can. I don't care if the neighbors will complain I just want to remove the anger out of me.

I just feel really hurt right now.

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I know, short chapter! >_< I'm getting very weak at writing these days. But I'll try to make the next chapter longer and better! Thanks, guys!