Don't Go Looking For Love❤️

DON'T GO LOOKING FOR LOVE--Post (2)

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Life was crazy stressful....since August's brother had been shot.... They found the two guys who did it... ( drug related the news said but we knew better.... The funeral was one of the most beautiful yet bittersweet moments ever. He gripped my waist tightly as they place the casket into the tomb ... White roses from the nieces and red roses from everyone else.... I eased away from August and cleared my throat... As a request from his mom and mine.... I sang Amazing Grace.... August squeezed my hand so tight as I was singing. I hugged his mom and kisses her cheek. 300 people had come to Mel's funeral.... August and I were the last ones to leave..... Kissing my hand he says thank you... His voice cracks... My heart breaks for him. I caress his face as we walk the 26 blocks back to our neighborhood. Most of it in silence..... In the coming weeks I had almost become a fixture at his house helping with the nieces and such..... His other brother Travis dipped in and out when it struck him. Chantelle, comes in the kitchen and says where is Auggy? I said in his room I think... I had just made dinner and passed Chantelle a plate and was taking one to Aug...as I got to the doorway... I saw him shove something under the bed... THE FUCK JADE KNOCK NEXT TIME... He snatched the plate and slammed the door..... I quickly made up and excuse to go home...

Jade Savannah. Why are you coming home by yourself at this hour? 9:45 pm I just missed home, I lied. My mom said Aug. mom said you left in a hurry... Mom is okay. She let it go and I went to shower.... So imagine my surprise when j get out the shower and hear someone clear their throat...

I jumped and he chuckled a bit... Get dressed mama said come back to the house. I shook my head no. I'm good. He said by Chantelle and the cuties babies miss you.

I went back that night but shit just got different and I was spending less nights there... He was back hanging hard with his boys and paying
1/2 ass attention to me.... When I asked him about it he snapped... WTF ! You NOT my girl....
Me (cool) I turned and made my way down the steps while he slammed the door.... His mom was home and shook her head. I tell you that boy fucking bi polar....
I swallow hard. He's still a good guy. Goodnight... This time we weren't 4 blocks away. My mom had moved us a little further out about 12 blocks into a bigger house. It was taking me a minute to get there...
About block 4 August caught up with me Jade... Jade JADE! I was trying so hard not to explode on him but it was inevitable. WHAT THE FUCK AL I was the only person who called him that when I got mad. I threw my hands up... What else did you come out here to tell me... Did you come out here to remind me not to speak to you in the streets? Hmmm...maybe not ever in school oh let me guess you got a new girl to watch your nieces... The fuck... I started walking faster before the tears splashed to the ground. His footsteps eventually caught up with mine... He walked me all the way home.... Quietly once we got inside he walked the house for safety. Aight he wiped his mouth I'ma go... With that he was in the wind... We passed each other quietly in school to the point where (Brandice) was like yo my dude What you doing? (August) whatchu mean?

Brandice You and chinky mean girl used to be tight...
Aug yo dead this convo ain't shit to say... Next time we would see each other was at the school talent show.
He got a standing ovation.... Girls swarmed him... I walked away Chantelle caught with me... I hate that you and my cousin act like strangers...I stopped walking I used to be able to tell Aug anything but it ain't like that no more.... I gotta go to work see you. She says where you working now... HOT FEET CUSTOMS... (Sneaker store ) she says cool.... I miss seeing you at the house. I say I miss you too and give her a hug... I make
My way out to the front of the school and mishawn says umm they she go the had been ex... I mean if my GPA wasn't the highest in the school I would have waxed that ass... Instead I kept walking... Mishawn had been after August for the longest and let her tell it her last name was his....

Chantelle couldn't stand her and let her know every time. I hopped the bus and headed to work.... When closing came.... August was at the gate... Come on I'll give you a ride.... I wanted to say no, but I was exhausted and still had homework.... Thanks.... He opened the door for me there were 2 dozen white and pink roses on the seat. These are yours, your performance was dope. Thanks. I liked yours as well... It was quiet after that.... He snuck his hand into mine and kissed the back of mine...
Jade, I know I've Fcked up us.... But I miss US
I looked out the window.... He swallowed hard. Jade you've been there for me even when I didn't deserve it... I miss my friend.... I miss my girl....