Don't Go Looking For Love❤️

Lean Back....Part 21

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DON'T GO LOOKING FOR LOVE

POST 21

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I think one of my boys is stealing money from me... I give August the side eye and put the baby down. I was straight out irritated with this bald ass lie.

I never had put my hands on August, but he was playing with me today..

I swallow hard and will my hands to stay by my side...

I said August I see every single penny that goes in and out... So no one has been stealing please be straight with me... He says Damn Jade... Fine, you really want to know. I said not if you don't care to tell me on your own...

I go to slide out the bed but he grabs my arm. Don't do that... I said what... He said your getting in your feelings over some shit...

I shake my head... Please let me go.... He looks at me and he releases my hand... I grab my clothes and get dressed. Where you going, I'll call Corry! I said don't bother, I'm a big girl I can take care of myself.....I close the door leaving big and little August behind. I head straight for the front door and Channi is like sis where you going... I said I need to breathe a moment. She says I hope everything is cool... I close the door behind me.

I was gone for 10 hours and only came

Back because my boobs were engorged and August had called me 50-11 times. I walk in and all eyes are on me... I speak and go take my baby from Channi.... He had a few bottles but he's still fussy. I said ok... I go into the bedroom. August says finally welcome back. I just cut my eye at him.... I sit Indian style and whip out my boobie..

Neeks happily drowns himself in warm milk nursing for over 2 hours off and on.

August watched silently... He says Neeks you good? Niko squirms for a minute then settled back into munching.. August says Jayyddddde in a heavy accent.

I say yes August?

He says you love me. I 1/2 smile and say yes August.

He says Jayyddddde ! He had taken a trip to to the Forrest (trees) he says... I ain't do it in here... I went to another room.

I said smoking with a bunch of bitches?

August says I ain't been fucking with none of these bitches never. I've never cheated on you baby. I've been sick with you gone alla these hours!

I'm.... I feel lonely without you, but I feel like we spend all of our time together...almost smothered. How you supposed to say that to someone you love? I said it's okay August, you just did.

He had tears coming down his face... He takes my hand but I pull it away. I put Neeks down and walk out the room putting my hair in a bun.

I walk out the front door and down to the front desk to get a bell hop to help me with my bags... It was 10:30am when I got myself back home with Neeks.... I don't unpack, I bathe Niko first and then call him to let him know I'm home.

He says Jade... Yes August? I still love you baby... I said I'm emailing you something... Let me know when you get it. Goodnight.

I threw my phone on the bed and it blows up 25 times.... While I showered...

I call Channi back hello?

Channi -what you mean you resigning your position?

(Me) I'm pulling back... I don't want to interfere with August's life. Channi says girl you his whole wife... You do his business! What the hell is going on with him! I said I don't know and I'm not gonna beg to be put on. I have some

School work to do, but I wish him all the very best. Love you Channi. I hang up.

The next morning my mother fussed me out in mandarin for two hours.. Your husband! Your duty she said. I said ma... Hush Jade Savannah. I burst out crying He doesn't want me

All up in his face.. He wants to do him... I'm not going back.

4 months go by in a shot....Neeks is 6 and a 1/2 months.

It's my birthday... I'm in the kitchen making breakfast for Neeks when there is a knock at the door. I go to the peephole while Dolce barks his head off. It's August he had been coming every week to see Neeks when he had a breaks from tour...

He walks in and says hey Jade. I say August. His eyes are really red. He says I have something for you, happy birthday.... He leans in and kisses me on the cheek. He touches my belly how is baby? Fine.

I lock the door and watch him walk in smelling the cherry blossoms. Still beautiful.. He walks up behind me and holds me. My body tenses l hadn't been in his arms in over a month.... My heart aches for what we once had.... But it seemed there was no going back....