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when it all falls down!52

DON'T GO LOOKING FOR LOVE 52

I slide back into bed with my back to August... I wanted to be spooned and told him so... He says of course love... He wraps me up in his arms and kisses the back of my neck and plays in my hair like the babies do when they are nursing. He kisses my left shoulder and rubs my arm... Thank you for every single thing you do for me.
He falls asleep 15 minutes later. I lay there with my eyes open... I had an appointment with the doctors In a few hours then I had some business to take care of for August... Then I had a nail appointment...

-Doctor Victori congratulations mom seems you have a 6 weeker...

- me schedule a termination. How soon can you do it?

The doctor looks taken aback... I shake my head to fight the tears... She says a week from today. I touched my stomach... And sign the paperwork I go to the dealership and re order August's tesla... Jet black with candy red interior and top of the line everything. I skip my nail appointment and head home... August is sitting on the bed holding head. JADE CLOSE DA DOOR!

I do and he says don't FUCKING BELIEVE YOU!!! I close my eyes.
You weren't even gonna tell me about this baby were you? I said how did you.... He says don't worry about how the fuck I found out... You terminate and we have serious problem. I say August... He said Jade, we missing a princess because of fucked up circumstances and you're just gonna take life! You GOD now? He jumps up and is in my face he grabs my jaws ugh he has rage in his eyes... I stare at him. August have never laid a finger on me other than grabbing a wrist or arm. I'm not afraid he'll do anything...

He lets me go. I fucking love the shit out of you and all my kids... PLEASE DONT.... DO.... THIS.....

Over the next 6 days he watched me like a hawk.... I was super duper sick and had to be rushed to the hospital one night and I was diagnosed with
Hyperemesis gravidarum

Basically I was super duper sick almost round the clock. August let my mother tend to me... On the Monday of my appointment he was up early. I showered fed the babies made and got dressed.
- August where you going ?
Out
August WHERE YOU GOING OUT???
I sigh to the doctor August
August so you still going through with this shit... You don't even care what I say...
August I touch his hand he snatched away fuck this man that is my baby too. princess, nico, Kye Lexington, Kensington,Khloe and Mikal were meant to be and so is he or she he's crying. I go to him but he pushed me away! I open the door and walk out.
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