Don't Go Looking For Love❤️

REVELATIONS-PT-43

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DON'T GO LOOKING FOR LOVE
POST 43

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August made it an extra special trip by chartering a private jet to the island of Kauai...

I'm in awe of its beauty... it let me free and unique as I was.....

August baby what you thinking of...

Thinking that the way you need to be love and the way I need to be loved were born out of the fact that we have crazy parental backgrounds....

yeah, but Jade your upbringing was way more stable then mine...

I say yeah but I always wanted that father in my life and I'm just very thankful that you want to be there for our children.

August, jade where else would I be? Those are my heartbeats... and our princess in heaven... he sniffles... she was gonna get that same love. He kisses my forehead and squeezes me as we walk along the beach.

No one expected me to live as long as I have and to be doing as well as I am. I'm glad I get to share these moments wit you....

August--- Jade what are you talking about....

Jade swallows hard.... when I was born I died twice 5 minutes after birth and 20 minutes after birth.... they told my mom that they weren't sure what caused it and to monitor me closely after I got home.... from the time I was home until 3 I would black out at random.... then be just as good as ever....

August stops walking and stares at me crazy... Damn so you know what I felt like falling off stage...

I nod... I say it hasn't happened to me much as an adult except right before our wedding.... He says Jade that shit was fucking scary as hell.... like I would have flown the plane my damn self if I could have...

I say thank you for being there and for loving me.... I say promise me that if something happens to me, you'll be the one to raise our babies...

August-JADE stop you're scaring me...

Jade-- August promise me

August- okay, I promise... of course... baby is there something that you aren't telling me right now? I swallow and look him in the eyes... I say no baby.

August-- jade don't fucking lie to me...

I'm not lying... I'm just scared that something bad is going to happen... I've done bad things August... I shot someone...

August baby to save my life...

Jade I know baby... but karma is everlasting...

August baby you have been through so much I'm sure you and Karma are even

I kiss his lips and run off.... I wasn't ready to tell him just yet...

We spend 7 wonderful days in Hawaii under the sun getting more golden each day.... reconnecting and fucking our brains out each night in the house or on the beach in the moonlight... hell in the middle of the fucking day in the water away from the sure.... Jade was my angelic nasty girl....

On the plane ride home she is especially cuddly and I know she didn't think I wouldn't notice.... As we get off the plane and into our car I say what are you holding on to...

She sighs and says... okay remember when I first told you that we only had a 40% chance of having a baby...

August baby you're pregnant?

No baby, I'm not.... in fact its quite the opposite... the twins are probably going to be our last babies... I'm going to have to have my uterus removed...