Is there sunshine after the rain?

Chapter 40

Cc's POV:

I ran past the other BVB members who were calling my name, but I ignored them.

I ran until I got to the same field that CC and Andy and I were in. I made my way to the middle where there was a clearing. I sat down and cried more. A tear lander on my arm and it was black from all the makeup. I turned over my wrist and stared at the tattoo. I grabbed the blade and cut straight through it. I was so upset, nothing could save me. I cut through the tattoo about 5 times before I heard faint voices calling my name. I ignored them and just cried before I heard the corn moving and someone walking towards me. " Cc I'm so sorry I love you" it was Andy. I stood up and faced him. "really? How can I believe you after I saw that?" I saw he had blood all over his face. " what happened?" I asked softening my tone. " I told the boys what happened and they beat me up." he looked at the floor and I just stood there trying to resist the urge to hug and kiss him. " can you give me the blade you said you wouldn't cut again" I looked down at my bloody wrist and said " too late" and then turned round the other way and sat down again. I held the blade in the other hand and I cut at my other wrist. " Cc! STOP!" Andy screamed. Before I knew it, all of the boys were around me and I stood up. I trie to push past them but they circled me so I couldn't. " just let me die like everyone wants!" just then, my phone rang.

I took it out of my pocket to see it was Jack.

-call-

C. Hello?

J. Hello Cc. You've changed so much!

C. Don't start Jack

J. Please come home we miss you.

C. Who's we? You and Del that's it!

J. What are you talking about? The Lynches miss you!

C. Don't lie. They won't like me any more though.

J. Can you just come home. Please?

C. Fine. When?

J. As soon as Warped tour finishes ok?

C. Ok.

J. Don't bring the goths with you.

C. WE ARE NOT GOTHS!!!!!

Then I hung up.

-end of call-

I got frustrated and threw my phone to the floor. " please, just move!" I shouted out loud. " no. Give us the blade" Ash said. I shook my head and held it tighter. I saw Andy look over his shoulder and took that as my opportunity. I shoved him hard and he fell to the floor. I ran and ran to get away from the boys, trying but failing to outrun them. CC was the fastest out of all of them, so he caught up with me.

We were just on the edge of the field when CC pulled me to the ground. I immediately got up but was pinned to the floor by Ashley who was the second fastest. I shouted " PLEASE, JUST LEAVE ME!" Andy sat on top of me to stop me from getting up. I screamed and Andy bent down and kissed my now black cheek. " ANDY! LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed. Andy looked shocked and upset. I somehow managed to push him off me and got up and ran again. This time, Ashley caught me as he was good at short distances and he picked me up and carried me to the bus. I was frantically trying to get down, but he was much stronger than me.

When everyone was on the bus, And came over to me and said "Scout has gone" I looked up at him and cried again. "IT DOESN'T MATTER IF SHE'S GONE OR NOT, YOU STILL CHEATED ON ME!" I saw everyone clench their fists as I said it. "Cc come here" Jake said. I did what I was told and followed him to his room.

We sat on the bed and he said " it doesn't matter if he made 1 mistake, he will learn from it. Andy loves you and he will never stop. Trust me I can tell. he has loved other girls before, but not like you. He kisses you differently and he is so much closer to you." I listened to his words and finally said " I know, but it feels like so many parts of my heart have been ripped out, that there's nothing left." Jake pulled me onto his lap and said " try and learn to love again. Let Andy help you he loves you." I nodded my head. " oh one more thing" he said. I sighed knowing what he was going to say. I held out my hand and let him take the blade. He ran his fingers over my cut up tattoo. "Oh Cc" was all he said. I cried and clung on to him. He wrapped his free hand around me and called out for CC. " here. Take this and throw it away" I still cried in too much emotional pain to even move.

I was picked up by someone, and I looked and saw it was Andy. I was too tired to fight him so I just relaxed.

Andy laid me on his bed and came back with a make-up wipe. He got rid of it all and then sighed and said " get changed my angel" and passed me my pyjamas. I nodded my head and as I got up, I stopped crying and walked over to Andy and hugged him tight. " I love you Andy" I whispered.

" I love you too" he whispered back. He kissed my cheek and I went and got changed.

I went to sleep again on Andy and knew that I had forgiven him. I loved him more than I ever loved anyone else, and didn't want to be apart from him.