Is there sunshine after the rain?

Chapter 43

Cc's POV:

"Cc!" Rydel screamed as soon as she got on our bus. We hugged each other for a long time.

We talked about all that had happened since we were apart. "Ross misses you so much you know Cc" Rydel said. I looked at the floor and made sure Andy was out of ear range. " He has a funny way of showing it." Rydel made me look at her and said " what do you mean?" I looked into her eyes and cried. " I saw him here and he said I was a failure and I should have died that day instead of Jade. Everyone misses Jade, but no one would miss me if you died because I was a nobody. Now I'm an emo nobody. He also said you guys hated me" I lost it and just completely broke down in front of her. " I miss him too but he made me cut again Delly. How am I supposed to take him back knowing that he motivates that?" Rydel sat closer to me and hugged me. "Delly, I'm coming home after tour ends. I hope you guys don't hate me." She pulled me I to her lap and said " hey! If we hated you, I wouldn't have come to see you! We miss you like mad and want you back. We're happy that your happy and that's all that matters." Andy came out of his room and ran over to me. "what happened?" he said looking at Delly. "she remembered what Ro-" I cut her off by saying "how much I miss them" Delly looked at me and I just shrugged it off. "Cc, even when you cry, you're a terrible liar. What's wrong?" Andy asked. I sat there remembering when Ross said all that to me, and also remembered being told that Andy beat up Ross. I didn't want it to happen again. I got up and ran to Andy's room. I got out my other blade and hid it in my pocket.

I came out And walked out of the bus. I bumped into Jake who said "what's wrong?" he saw I had my hand in my pocket and opened his mouth to speak but I ran off. I went to the field. "Cc! Cc! Please! Come back!" Jake shouted. I cried even more and just collapsed to the floor. I sat down still holding the blade in my pocket. Jake reached me and sat down in front of me. he took my hands and I still kept the blade. "Cc, stop doing this to yourself. You don't need to." I just stared at him. "JAKE! YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW IT FEELS TO BE HATED, TO HATE, TO MISS, AND TO HAVE DO IDEA HOW YOU FEEL. IF YOU DID, YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND BUT YOU DON'T. DON'T PATRONISE ME AND DON'T EVEN TRY AND TAKE THE BLADE OFF ME BECAUSE IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!" I finished and stood up. I walked towards the bus with Jake following me. All of the band including Andy and Rydel were outside of the bus. I walked up to Andy and put the blade back into my pocket. I kissed Andy on the lips passionately but pulled away. "Andy, I am so messed up at the moment and it's not fair on you guys to put you all through this." I paused and silently cried. "Andy, as much as I hate to do this, I can't go out with you any more. I don't want you to get heartbroken with me leaving everyone behind permanently." I stopped an turned to face everyone else. I pulled off the ring and said " I'm so sorry guys but I can't be in the band. I don't know what I want and don't want any of you to get hurt. Sorry" I cried and gave the ring to Andy. "IF YOU DON'T WANT ANYONE TO GET HURT, THEN STAY GOD DAMN IT Cc!" Andy shouted at me. I cried harder and whispered "Sorry, but I have to" I pulled out the blade from my pocket and ran off. I heard Jake shouting "ANDY! YOU T***! SHE HAS A BLADE AND HAS SAID GOODBYE BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T WANT US TO GET UPSET WHEN SHE DIES!" Immediately, Andy was shouting " Cc! Please wait! Don't do it!" I ran right through the field and got to a stream. I sat on the bank and cried.

Before I knew it, I was on the floor with Andy on top of me, CC holding my left arm and Jinxx holding my right arm. Jake sat on my legs and Ashley was comforting Rydel who was now crying. "Cc, IF NO-ONE CARED ABOUT YOU, YOU WOULD HAVE DIED A LONG TIME AGO. EVERY TIME YOU TRY AND KILL YOURSELF, SOMEONE SAVED YOU BECAUSE YOU MEAN TO MUCH TO US TO LOOSE YOU. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST STOP BEING SO SELFISH AN SEE THAT?!?" His words hurt more than Ross'. I cried and shouted back " BECAUSE IM TOO BUSY DEALING WITH JACKASSES LIKE YOU WHO TELL ME THEY LOVE ME AND THEN CHEAT ON ME!" Andy's face went from angry to sad. He loosened his grip on me and got off. I took that as an opportunity and tried to sit up but Ashley sat on me and shouted "ANDY! YOU'RE SUCH A D***! Cc HAS TRIE TO FORGIVE YOU, BUT EVEN THOUGH YOU KNEW HOW MUCH SHE HAD BEEN THROUGH, YOU WERE THE SELFISH ONE NOT Cc!" I smiled and whispered "thanks" he looked down at me and smiled.

We got back to the bus and somehow, CC had taken the blade off me and had thrown it away. "I'm sorry guys. I'm guessing I'm kicked out of the band now." I sat on the sofa and all of the boys except from Andy sat around me. Rydel sat on Ashley's lap and Jinxx pulled me onto his. " don't be silly Cc. We love you and want you to stay." I smiled and saw Andy.

I walked over to him and said " Andy, I'm so sorry. You were right. I was selfish. I'm so sorry. You probably hate me and want me to go home and leave the band and-" I was cut off by Andy cupping my face and kissing my lips. He tugged on my lip ring which made me smile. I broke from him and he slipped my ring back on my finger. "Cc. I love you. Stay?" I nodded my head and cried and Andy kissed me again.

-----tour ends------

(summary)

Cc and Andy are still together, Ashley and Rydel are going out and only Cc and BVB know, Rydel stayed on tour with Cc, and all of BVB, Rydel and Cc were going back to Cc's house.

Cc's POV:

"Cc!" Jack shouted as soon as we got out of the bus. I held Andy's hand and kissed him on the lips. Jack pulled us apart and shouted at me " Cc! WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING WITH THIS EMO?" I sighed and Andy lifted his fist up. "Andy! No!" I pulled Andy away and told him to chill and I told Jack about Andy.

Once he chilled out, he led us inside the house. "SURPRISE!!!!" All of the lunch's including Ross, and Lou were in my living room. I cried with happiness and met everyone. "This is Andy. He's my boyfriend." everyone smiled. "umm, hi everyone, I'm Ashley" everyone looked at Ashley who suddenly spoke and he interlocked his fingers with Rydel's. "I'm Rydel's boyfriend." all of BVB smiled and so did her family except for Riker. He grabbed Ashley by the throat and pinned him against the wall. "if you so much as insult her, I will make sure you don't live to regret it" Andy smirked and I elbowed him in the gut. Ashley flipped them round knowing he was stronger than Riker. "oh really?! I'm sure that won't happen, but I love her so I wont." the boys split off and Ashley was smirking. I walked off to Riker and whispered " I'll get him later for you" Riker smiled and then we had dinner.

I walked outside for some fresh air. Realising I had Andy's jacket, I looked in the pocket and found his cigarette packet, his lighter, and his wallet. I smiled and put his wallet back. " don't you dare" someone said. I turned around seeing Andy in the doorway. I smirked and said " so you care more about your fags than your wallet?" Andy nodded his head and I smiled. I pulled out a cigarette and lit it. He said " hey!" I didn't smoke it, just held it. " Cc! What the hell are you doing to yourself Cc?!" a mad looking Ross said. I sighed and beckoned Andy over. I gave him his cigarette and said " Ross, I don't smoke. This is Andy's jacket and Andy's fag. Trust me. I don't want to intoxicate myself." I looked at Andy and sheepishly smiled. He just smiled and shrugged. "come away from him Cc." I laughed and said " really?! And come back to you?! I don't think so!" Ross slowly reached out for my arm but I pulled away. "Don't touch me" I growled through my teeth. Andy held me tight to him and I whispered " I have a feeling you might need to get rid of that" I pointed to his cigarette and he nodded and put it out. " Ross, you blew your chances with me. Go. Just leave. You told me you wanted me dead, but Andy doesn't so I am going to stay alive." Ross looked shocked but went round the side of the house and left.

I dragged Andy back inside so he couldn't smoke. " but babe, I need too!" he whined. I smiled and said " if you smoke, I can't kiss you!" he smirked too and said " well it's a good job I didn't smoke then!" I smiled as we both leaned in. We found ourselves making out on my sofa.

I loved it here! BVB stayed over at Jacks house, but were only allowed if they slept in the living room.

But of course they didn't.

Rydel was staying in the spare room, and Ashley went up to 'visit her', and Andy came to'visit me'. I huddled into Andy as I fell asleep and whispered " I love you Andrew Biersack. If The time ever came, I would most certainly die for you. I've given you my heart to break. I love you." Andy pulled me closer and whispered " that would be great lyrics to a song".......