Is there sunshine after the rain?

Chapter 59

I walked into the room to see all the guys there. Including Andy. I held onto Ash's hand tight. "Whore" Andy muttered. I guess he heard then. I let go of Ash's hand and walked up to Andy as he stood up. I slapped him hard and pulled up my sleeve to reveal 'whore' on my arm. " Yes Andy. I know. Give it a rest will you? haven't you done enough damage!?" I pointed to my lip and he looked away. " Exactly. Maybe now you'll know how it feels" he looked at me confused until I slapped his face again. He stood there silent so I went to slap him again but he grabbed my wrist causing me to flinch. I saw pain and regret in his eyes but I didn't care. "Don't you dare hit me again" he growled. I smirked " or what?" I spat. He shoved me backwards but I stayed on my feet. " Oh! I get it! the abuser doesn't like to be abused now he knows how it feels! now it all makes sense!" I said with sarcasm dripping from every word. He went to hit me but a hand caught his.

Ash.

" If you so much as lay a finger on her I will hurt you" he growled. I grabbed Ash and walked out the room. We went to the kitchen and sat down with all the others. "Hey guys. Can I talk to all of you in private?" Ash said to the boys. I kissed his cheek and said " I'll go" I went to get up but he pulled me down. He made me straddle him and kissed me strongly. I tugged gently on his hair and went to pull away. Ash held my forehead against his and pulled out my bottom lip with his teeth. I looked into his eyes and smiled. He did too and let go. " That hurt didn't it" he whispered. I nodded and looked down. He made me look at him and kissed me lightly. "Sorry" he mumbled. I smiled and kissed him lightly and got off his lap.

I walked out of the room to be pinned against the wall by Andy. "I'm so sorry" he said. I nodded my head and kissed his cheek. "Me too" I stroked his cheek and he smiled and touched my lip. I flinched and he pulled away. "Sorry" he said. I smiled and nodded. I hugged him and he hugged back and kissed my hair.

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I was in Ash's room waiting for him to come up when I heard him talking with Andy. " So yeah. We think you guys should get back together as long as you promise NEVER to hurt her EVER again"

"I swear on my life" Andy said

" And we found her older brother" I froze. No. No no no! I opened the door and saw them both look at me. "Why didn't you tell us about your brother babe?" Andy said. I shook my head and ran past them to the bathroom. "No you don't" Ash said as he grabbed me and pinned me to a wall. " Why" he said. " Because he abused me" I finished and shoved Ash away and shut myself in his room. " Babe let me in" Andy said. I opened the door and yelled " I AM NOT GOING WITH DRAKE!" and slammed the door shut again.

I looked to the ensuite and walked towards the drawer with my blades in. I picked up one and felt a hand on mine push it away. "Please" Andy whispered in my ear. I felt his chest pressed lightly up against my back and his legs just behind mine " Do you really think it would make a god damn difference Andy" I stated. I felt his body move away from mine so I spun round. "Look, I'm sorry" I said looking into his eyes. " Just give me time okay?" he nodded and walked out the room.

I dragged the blade over my skin on my thighs and then my arms. I knew I had been in the room for a while now, and wasn't surprised when I heard a nock on the door. " Go away!" I shouted. I heard the door open so I quickly wiped my cuts and put my sweat pants back on with my hoodie. "Show me" I jumped spinning round seeing Andy in the doorway. " Show you what?" I said pushing past him walking into the room. I sat on the bed and Andy stood in front of me. " Please let me see" he whispered. I shook my head and the tears rolled off my face. " Please don't make me see my brother" I was pushed down and Andy straddled me. " Show me your cuts first" he said softly. I sighed hard and pulled up my sleeves. "They're on my thighs as well" he shook his head and kissed my wrists. " I promise I won't let him take you" I smiled and Andy kissed me. I kissed back and rolled onto my side with him. I pulled away and shot up. " He's here isn't he" Andy pulled me back down and nodded his head holding me tightly. I cried and cried holding his arms.

Ash walked through the door with Drake. " Hey sis. I missed you" he mumbled. I scoffed and sat up. " Don't pretend you care" I spat back. Ash reached out to touch my arm but I pulled away. " I don't know what hurt more. Being lied to by my ex or not being believed by my ex" Ash looked down and I stood up with Andy who held my hand tight. " Ash she can't go" Drake went to grab my arm but Andy pushed me behind him. " I am not letting her go Ash. End of"

" Why? she's a slut" Drake said as he got my arm and pulled me out of the room. " Don't you DARE talk to my girlfriend like that" I was dragged down the stairs and screamed as I was pulled to the door. " Cc!" I heard 3 other voices yell. I screamed out more and found myself in the arms of Jake crying. I was taken to the back garden and I sat on Jakes lap whilst he stroked my hair an told me everything was going to be okay. " They said that when Jade died" I mumbled causing myself to go into hysterics again.

Andy soon came out and took me from Jake. We walked past Ash shoving Drake out of the front door so I wiggled out of Andy's arms and whispered " i'll be up in a minute baby" he nodded and kissed me lightly before going upstairs. " Ash?" I said as I touched his shoulder. He looked up at me and then looked away but I made him look me in the eye. " Thanks for getting Andy and I back together. That means a lot to me" he smiled slightly and said " just remember that you know where to find me" I giggled and he smirked. " And I'm sorry. I know you were only trying to help" he nodded and hugged me tight. " Me too babe" I kissed his cheek and said goodnight to him and the others before going upstairs to find Andy in bed.

I smiled and got changed and slid in behind him. I hugged him from behind and he spun round and did the same to me. " I love you baby. I'm so sorry" I nodded and kissed him lightly before saying " its okay hun. I love you too" he smiled and we cuddle up closer and I soon fell asleep.