My Muse [COMPLETED]

Chapter 27

DAY 21
JUNGKOOK'S POV

I skipped school. It was a Friday, so what was the point?

I walked out of my car, and locked it up. "Ugh..." I unlocked my car again, and grabbed the bouquet of flowers.

I started at the flowers, chrysanthemums. Soorin loved these flowers, her reason because they can be beautiful flowers or you can make it into tea.

I scanned the graveyard, and saw hers. It was clean, like someone had just came recently. I squatted, and read. "Kim Soorin. June 23 1998-September 2 2013. A loving daughter, sister, and friend"

She died a day after my birthday... Tears welled up in my eyes, "Soorin. I didn't mean to make you do this! I couldn't bring myself here because I felt guilty when I found out. I cheated on you because I was jealous that you were friends with Jimin! I said mean things to you...and told you to die. Soorin, I never meant to say that."

I cried out, wiping away my tears. Soorin, my first love who was a year younger than me. When I first laid eyes on her, she was the most beautiful creature in the world. I knew she had to be mine.

I placed the bouquet next to her stone (idk what it's called), and wiped away my tears. I took out a small peach from my jacket pocket, and placed it on the grass, in front of her stone.

"You know Soorin, I like someone right now. I finally found something to let me move on. You'll always be in my heart, but I can't just stand there and mourn for you right? This girl... My feelings for her are so strong. I can't explain it. I've only known her for 21 days, but she puts me under a spell." I giggled, "I basically told her not to talk to me anymore. I ignore her, but I'm hurting myself. I couldn't come here, until V hyung showed me your note... Soorin, why'd you do that?"

It was cold, the wind was starting to get stronger as the sun rose. "I know you'll probably tell me that everything happens for a reason. But... Why did you suicide Soorin? We fought many times, but..." I began to cry again, "You never took your life. It's my fault. I can't believe I'm here living, being a reckless human while you're in heaven, you life cut short."

I felt warmness surround me.

"You're telling me that it's okay, and to treat Yuna better than I treated you, huh?" I smiled, looking at the sun. "It's so beautiful right here. Taehyung chose the right place."
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YUNA'S POV

"Yoohoo! Yhna! Wake up!"

I quickly sat straight, "OW!!" I yelled, and Yerin rubbed her chin. "Aigo..." Sowon unnie laughed, "Why'd you do that?!" Yerin whined, "Aish! You're the one who chose to put your head there!"

"I didn't know you rammed your skull into people's delicate chin!" She shouted, and we all bursted out in laughter. "Let's go to the cafeteria! I'm hungry!" Umji decided, and we all nodded. I stood up, and stretched while yawning.

As we walked toward the cafeteria, Jimin and V passed by me. Jimin was looking at me, but I avoided his eyes.

I've been telling Jungkook, Jimin, and myself that I like Jimin. But I don't, in reality it was me trying not to admit that I was starting to actually like Jungkook. I did it without even noticing it.

As we past by the school garden, I felt wind rush through me. I suddenly had the urge to see Jungkook, and I didn't know why.

"I have to do something!" I yelled, and began to run. I ran without knowing, only letting the wind guide me, and I appeared in front of an empty land.

I saw a figure, and squinted my eyes. Jungkook...

I walked over to him quietly, and he was lying down in the weeds, staring up in the clear sky. I stood in front of his head, and looked down at him.

He looked at me, and said nothing. He sat up, and I sat next to him, hugging my knees. "What are you doing? You're skipping school?" He chuckled, and I shook my head.

"I wanted to see you."

"Something told me to come and wait here. I wanted to see you too." He said softly. I noticed his red nose, and swollen eyes. "You were crying."

"I went to her grave."

I understood what he meant, Soorin, the girl that suicided and Taehyung's little sister.

"I loved her, I really did. I still love her right now. She's my first love," He told me, and I looked at him. "I like someone else right now, but Soorin will always my be in my heart. I just can't let her go, it's like she has a small piece of my heart that she didn't return. Instead, she took it with her in heaven."

That's why he was looking at the sky. It all made sense now. The reason why he bullied me, the reason why he would sacrifice his friendship with Jimin, when he killed someone for me, and when he told me goodbye.

"I like you Yuna."

He did all that for me.

He bullied that girl he liked because he didn't want to get close to her, because he was still stuck over Soorin. He would sacrifice his relationship with Jimin because he didn't want to lose the girl he likes again. He didn't want her to go through what Soorin did, he didn't want her to pick him or Jimin. He killed someone to protect her, and to made sure that she was safe from harm. He told her goodbye because he remembered all the things he did to Soorin, and he didn't want the past to repeat itself again.

"I like you too."

He turned his head to me, and I smiled. "I thought you liked Jimin..." He mumbled. I laid down, looking at the sky. "I realized it. I never did like him, I only said it so I could cover up my feelings for you."

"We've only known each other for 21 days, but look at us." He chuckled, laying down next to me, and looking at the sky. "We've been through a lot together." I told him, and he took my hand, and held it.

"I've moved on from Soorin's death but I can't get her out of my heart." He told me honestly, and I tightened my grip on his hand.

"I don't expect you to let her out of your heart. I understand where you're coming from."

"Would you still like me even if I killed someone?" He faced me, and I faced him too. "I wouldn't leave you just because of that."