Call Me Back (A Fab Moretti fanfic)

My past

~~~Fab's POV~~~

I wake up in Penny's bed the next day completely naked and I had my arm around her waist, I remember last nights events

~~~Flashback~~~

I had just left Alex's house god I feel horrible why do I do this. I hit my head on the steering wheel repeatedly feeling stupid. I needed to go talk to someone but who I don't want to let the guys know about what I did but who could I talk to....AHA Penny obviously Nick had to tell her where he is and what happened or she'll worry. I drove to their house and knocked on the door, Penny opened the door "oh....hey Fab"
"look I know I hurt Alex's feelings but I was drunk out of my mind had no idea I was doing those things, if I did then I would have stopped" I said with a pleading look of forgiveness and she sighed and let me in. I sat down on her couch and she sat next to me, Olivia  (her baby) started to fuss around then cry. Penny shushed her and rocked her but she wouldn't stop crying "let me try I can try to calm her" I said putting my arms out and Penny handed me her and I rocked Olivia back and forth, a little later she was successfully asleep and Penny looked at me like I just magically made something disappear. She had the biggest smile on her face it was adorable, what am I thinking I just hurt Alex...she grabbed Olivia and put her in a crib in a room downstairs and she softly closed the door then hugged me clinging onto me
"You have the hands of like Jesus or something it is hard as fuck to get her to sleep!" she said wrapping her legs around my waist and I wasn't expecting that so I fell back down on the couch. We were both laughing and she wrapped her arms around my neck started to play with my curls "you know whenever something happens Nick goes and comforts her it's a little silly but I would kind of get jealous" she chuckled
"Why so?" I asked getting turned on because she was moving her hips a little on my lap
"I kind of think they are cheating on us" she said barely placing her lips on my neck, I sucked in my breath and let out a shaky breath. Me and Alex have had sex but I like to take my time and go slow but she wants me to go fast and deep, I do know she loves me because we have those innocent moments and we cuddle it's just during sex she's full of lust mostly then passion. Penny started to suck on my neck and you can imagine what happens obviously if I'm waking up next to Penny while both of us are naked. The thing I loved is she liked it nice and slow and after we were done she said that Nick always wants to be rough and fast but she wants to take it slow even though he is amazing, same thing for me even though Alex likes things differently from me we still have amazing sex.

~~~Flashback over~~~

"Good morning" said Penny stretching and turning towards me then the baby monitor shows that Olivia is crying and we heard her "and here it goes" she laughed rolling her eyes so she pulled on some underwear and went downstairs.

~~~Alex's POV~~~

I woke up and stared at the wall, I don't know how to feel about this I mean yes me and Nick had amazing sex but I loved Fab. I just don't know how to feel about everything Fab really hurt my feelings I know he was drunk but still he didn't have to get drunk in the first place. Nick squeezed me a little and pulled me closer in his sleep tangling his legs with mine, it was kind of cute because it reminds me of when me and Fab would cuddle together. The difference now is he isn't Fab and we are both naked so I can feel him against me, I was kind of turned on but I was sad at the same time. I pulled him closer and wished it was Fab, I wonder where Fab went after Nick told him to leave I bet he went to Julian or something. Wait where's Albert I haven't seen him since yesterday morning. I slid out of Nick's arms waking him up in the process
"Sorry" I said pulling on clothes and he waved me off, I just put on a plain white shirt with some pajama shorts and put on socks to keep my feet from touching the cold wood floor downstairs. Nick came down a little later in his clothes from the previous night "you want breakfast" I asked yawning and he nodded his head so I put on some coffee and made breakfast. When I handed him a plate of food I saw my ring on the table so I picked it up looking closely at it
"You miss him don't you" said Nick taking a sip of his coffee and I didn't say anything because he already knew the answer. He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly "don't worry he won't leave you or anything" he said
"I'm scared of that but mostly because how he acted, I-I-I don't know if I can handle t-that" I stuttered as my anxiety shot up
"Shhh it's okay it won't happen again" Nick said pulling me into him, I bunched some of his shirt into my hands as I squeezed my eyes tightly as I was having flash backs of when my father would abuse my mother and almost me. My breathing became quicker and I started to cry
"I'm sorry Nick" I said hugging him tighter
"It's okay it doesn't bother me" he said kissing my head. Albert came inside the house and had a confused look on his face, Nick mouthed "I'll tell you later" so I get out of the hug and dragged my lifeless body upstairs so Nick can explain. I went to my bathroom to wash my face when I did I looked at my writs and legs seeing all the scars I had obtained from when I was younger, I remember it used to relieve my pain all the time from the problems I had at school and at home.

~~~if you are sensitive please do not read the next part~~~

I saw Fab's razor he uses to shave his beard in the corner of the counter "It can't hurt to do it one more time, right." I thought, I picked it up and broke the plastic around it taking the blade out. I lifted it to my wrist and glided it across watching the blood trickle down my wrists and I made another going deeper as I slid down onto the floor watching a pool of blood gather on the floor, I sighed in relief as physical pain takes away from the emotional ones. I saw Albert and Nick walk past me then stopped and turned on their heels and walked towards
"Oh god are you okay Alex!" said Nick frantically and went to go grab a small cloth
"Yah I'm fine guys" I laughed closing my eyes and opening then slowly
"Are you on drugs it seems like it?" Albert said looking closely at me
"If you call cutting yourself a drug then yes, no it's just cutting myself relieves me from emotional pain that's why I did it so much. It makes me calm and I can't take any medication for my illnesses because of this baby" I said pointing to my stomach and when I lifted my hand I realized that the blood has gotten onto my shirt from my wrist. Nick came back with a small towel and placed it over the puddle and then wet another and placed it around my wrist. I slammed my head against the door and groaned loudly as I kept on hitting it
"Alex stop that" said Albert grabbing my face to stop me
"I just" I sighed loudly "I always drag people into my problems, I hate when people worry for me. I always fucking do it though every single fucking time"
"It's okay Alex we choose to care" Nick said, Albert got a phone call and took it. He came back and said
"So Julian said that we aren't gonna tour because well you are gonna have a baby soon and Penny just had one and Julian and Nikolai have their kids so he doesn't want us to leave our families and loved ones" that's when the anger started to boil inside me and I gritted my teeth together
"ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?" I yelled scaring Albert and Nick
"LIKE ARE LITERALLY FUCKING KIDDING ME!" I said getting up
"FUCK ME MAN OH MY GOD!" I said storming out of the bathroom downstairs
"Alex calm down why are you angry" said Nick in a soft voice trying to calm me but it didn't work
"BECAUSE WE FOUGHT OVER HOW HES GONNA BE TOUING AROUND THE TIME I HAVE THIS BABY AND HE GOES OUT AND DRINKS HIS PROBLEMS JUST LIKE MY DAD!" I yelled
"But he's no-" said Albert but I cut him off
"DONT YOU EVEN TRY TO SAY HE ISNT LIKE HIM, HE CAME HOME AFTER GETTING DRUNK OVER HIS PROBLEMS AND ALMOST HITS ME! HE IS JUST LIKE him...." I yelled at first then got soft "I hate Fabrizio" I said looking at my wrists with a hurt voice
"You don't really mean it" said Albert
"Haha no I do, the funny thing is I remember as a child I would always hope that I would never meet someone who drinks or smoke yet I started to do both except I don't smoke a lot. Then I hoped that I never met someone who drink their problems away and I guess I fell in love with one who does" I said with a straight face "My life is a mess" I said putting my head in my hands "First was getting picked on at school, then my parents struggling over bills and wondering if we could actually eat something, then that guy sexually harassing me, then my dad drinking his problems away, then him abusing my mom, then you guys came into my life and made me happy for how long like only a day, I fell into deep depression again and tried to kill myself again, then I see you guys again after fixing myself up and many things happen including me going to a fucking coma for how long, then now and guess what I haven't told Fab" I said surprising them both
"What?" Asked both of them
"Well you see if I do have the baby if I can actually keep it we can both die during the birth process or just me..." I said looking at them with sad and tired eyes
"Why didn't you tell Fab that" asked Albert
"Because I didn't want to upset him" I said "get the fuck out off my house both of you" I said emotionally tired "I want to be left alone" as I grabbed a pillow off my couch and hugged it
"No we know you are gonna do something stupid so we can't" said Nick
"Well good if I did because I'll jump off everyone's dick" I said being salty that's when Albert is tired of my shit
"Okay Alex we get that you've gone through shit and we are sorry but stop saying that we would have less weight on our shoulders without you, people care about you okay stop fucking saying that shit because it's getting annoying. Also get over the past we have apologized for the things we have done so can you just get fucking over it!" He raised his voice
"You want me to get over going into a coma and all the other shit that has happened with you guys. Ha okay but I wouldn't think your girlfriend would too happy if she found out that you fucked me and we are still living in the same house." I said sassily leaning on one of my legs
"Don't bring Justyna into this Alex" Albert glared at me
"What it's like when me and Julian fucked and Fab was mad and sad about it" I said raising my eyebrows. After a while we made up but I was still kind of mad. We went on with rest of the day like normal, doing nothing.