wanted. ↠ completed

seventeen.

Disclaimer: Please do not read this chapter if you have suicidal thoughts. I wouldn't want this chapter to influence anyone to do this to themselves. If you don't want to read this please move on to the next chapter. But if you do want to read it, go ahead. YOU'VE BEEN WARNED!!!!

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Monday, 4:21 P.M <--------- Notice the time
WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT

I messed up everything. What I'm I supposed to do? Why I'm I living? Why I'm I going through this much pain? I didn't do anything to deserve this. You destroyed her heart, Finn. You did this to yourself. Shut up! I never meant to hurt her. I love her with all my heart. You're worthless, Finn. You're nothing without her.

Shut up, already!!! You have spoken way too much. I stood up from the bed and went downstairs. Everything that I have done for her is worthless. Why? Because where is she now? She left you. Stranded and you brought this house for you and her. For you and her. Where is she? She not here so you can't have this house.

I ran to the living room and picked up the T.V. I threw it to the other side of the room. I walked back to it and started laughing. It feels good, don't it? Release all your pain, Finn. I stomped on it until it was fully demolished. The whole screen was cracked and pieces of it, lied around it. I turned around. Release all the pain. Don't worry about what you are doing to yourself.

I punched the wall and left a hole in. I didn't feel any pain as I laughed. I looked at my hand and it was bleeding. But I didn't feel anything. I looked around the room and saw mirrors. You're a monster. Your reflection isn't anything. It doesn't show who you truly are. I took the mirror off the wall and threw it to the floor. The mirror shattered and pieces of glass were around the living room.

I slammed the other ones and it left even more pieces of glass on the floor. I left the living room and walked to the kitchen, still laughing. The last time you and Sasha kissed was right here. Make the kitchen a nightmare not a memory. I looked around the kitchen before destroying the cabinet door.

I took out the plates and threw some across the kitchen. I took out all the plates and slammed them on the floor.

I laughed as I took a knife out of the drawer. Hmm.....her kisses are what you're going to remember the most. But you won't ever get to kiss her lips again. Her kisses bring you pain. Remake the pain, Finn.

I pierced the knife into my arm and blood started to pour out. I laughed it off. No pain at all. I dropped the knife and it slid next to the sink. I picked up a chair and ripped it apart. I did the same to the others. I threw the parts of the broken chairs out of the kitchen into the hallway. I left the kitchen and went up the stair. I felt the blood trickled down my arm. I went into the bathroom and took out those useless pills for my head. No, don't get the wrong idea. These aren't going to be used for the regular use.

I exited the bathroom and went to my room. I closed and locked the door. I walked to the wall. I slid my finger through the blood that was pouring out of my skin. And wrote some words.

I then walked to the side of bed where Sasha slept at. I looked at the drawer and a picture of me and her stood standing there. I took it in my hands and sat on the floor.

I laid my head back against the drawer as I looked at the photo. What have I done to myself? I can't live without her. She would have prevented all of this from happening. And now I can never get her back.

I looked at the pill bottle that I had in my hand. Is this what I'm really thinking about doing? Yes! Think about it, Finn. You get to see your real and step dad. This is the best deal that you've ever received. You can't let this go! And you know you can't bare to see Sasha anymore. She probably doesn't even want you to live.

You're right. I know I am. And you could end yourself right now. All the pain you have felt will be washed away. You'll be in the heavens with your dads. It will be the best life in the world. It will be way better than this life. I looked at the bottle again. I opened it and poured the remaining 10 pills in my hand. I took a deep breath in and threw all of them in my mouth. I swallowed them and I knew my life had a time limit now.

I looked at the picture of me and the love of my life. "I'm so sorry." I whispered as teardrops fell on the picture. I hugged it and sat there looking up at the ceiling.

30 minutes later

My body was shaking uncontrollably. Like I was having a seizure but with my eyes opened. My life is ending and only have a little bit of time left. I turned around and grabbed the pen from the drawer. I then opened one of the drawers and found a paper. This is my time to say goodbye. I wrote the letter. And my arms started to feel weak as I wrote the last letter in my name. I folded it and held it in my broken hand.

"I love....you, Sasha." I whispered in my weak voice. Everything started slowly fading black.

Sad chapter 😱😱😭😭😭 I took a risk with writing this chapter. This isn't the ending by the way. The ending will be next chapter but that's the only info I'm giving you.

Please don't copy what Finn did. Don't cut yourself, don't overdose, don't break things in your house, and don't write on your walls with blood. Please don't copy any of the things Finn did in the chapter. Thank you so much for reading. 😃😃😃😃😃