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part 4 - forty eight.

"The only thing that can help me control them is you."

Finn's POV

"Then let me help you-

"No, Sasha! You chose to leave me! You chose to go to them! Out of anybody you could've choose, you chose them?!" I let out a unamused laugh.

"That's one of the stupidest decisions you have made so far." Blood trickled down the side of my face but I wasn't phased by it.

"Finn-

"No, Sasha. I don't want to hear any excuses or explanations of why or how you did it," She gave me the sad eyes but for some reason I couldn't control my anger. "You did what you did and you could never....ever take it back." I wasn't shouting but I was speaking in a threatening tone.

It stood in a silence after that sentence. No noise except my heavy breathing.

I took a quick look at her and she had tears running down her face. Finn! What are you doing!? You making the poor girl cry, for heavens sake!

"Wow Finn," Her soft, quiet voice echoed throughout the room.

I turned to look at her, "After Sarath, you know? The guy who had the wife and the kids, the guy who was using me to cheat in his wife? I thought I couldn't find anyone I would love more than I loved him. I thought that there was no possible way to love anyone. To find anyone that loved me. And no one to fight for."

She took a deep breath in, "But then I found you. You! Finn Bálor! Fergal Devitt! I found you. The love of my life. A person who actually loves me back. You found me at a time where I didn't think that there was a person who could care, love, and treat a woman like she's supposed to be treated. Even though, you chose to leave me for 5 months and kissed another woman, you still found ways to make me happy. You also found ways to show that you loved me."

"But what I don't understand is why?! Why won't you let me help you? I know I've made a dumb decision in leaving you but I still love you! Do you want me to spell it out for you? L. O. V. E." Her shouting made me look at her.

Tears flowed down her cheeks, showing all her emotions. You are an asshole, Finn. Look at her. Look at what you are doing to her. You are slowly breaking her.

"I love you and only you. I will never love Dolph. And I sure as hell will never love Seth. They just try to piss you off and the only way they could do it is by using me."

"And why do you get pissed off, Finn? Huh? Why do you?" She asked, wanting a answer. I only stared at her. "Answer the damn question!!" She shouted. "Because I fücking love you, Sasha!!" I shouted my answer, my voice finally being heard.

Concerned and in fear, she continued, "Then why won't you let me help you? I love you and you love me, so.....why not?" She asked, breaking down in tears.

"Because......" I couldn't deny the tears that were threatening to fall out of my eyes. "I'm a monster, Sasha." I softly spoke, calmness sweeping over me.

"I can't control myself anymore. Losing everyone.....and now that I've lost Austin.....I'm going crazy."

"I mean look at this," I lifted up my long sleeves to show her the cuts I did to myself on my arms and I pointed at the huge cut at the top of my forehead.

"I mean.....this isn't normal. I'm not sane anymore. I was....but I'm different now." I said, water pouring out of my eyes. "Please, Finn. Let me help you." I shook my head, whilst looking at my lap.

"I won't allow you too, Sasha. I'm too dangerous and I wouldn't want to hurt you. If I do this to myself, imagine what I could do when I'm pushed over the edge." I murmured, speaking my thoughts.

She walked over to me and pulled my face up by my chin. I stared at her beautiful brown eyes, "You have to understand that when you love someone, you'll go through anything to make sure that they're ok. You'll fight and fight until they are alright and for damn sure I'm going to fight for you. And I will never give up on you, Finn. Because I love you and you have to understand that." I stood quiet, just staring at her beautiful face.

She sighed while she stood up and I looked up at her. "If you want me to go then I'll go, but just know if you ever need me....I'm always here for you." She said, walking to the door.

My heart shattered little by little as I watched her walk closer and closer to the door. Tell her to stay, dumbass. You need her.

"Sasha. Wait." I spoke in a very low voice. Somehow she heard it and turned around. "I....need you." I said, breathing unsteadily since my emotions were running high.

She turned around all the way and walked over to me. I slowly stood up as she quickly jogged to me and gave me a big, tight hug. A hug that I honestly really needed. Especially from her.

Her face stood at the crook of my neck. The room was in a silence until I spoke up, "I'm so sorry, love." I whispered in her ear, hugging her tightly, not wanting to let go. "I'm sorry too, my love." She whispered back, her small arms were wrapped around my stomach.

Her warm body pressed against mine was very comforting.

We didn't care if 20 minutes past by, we just stood in the embrace. "I love you." I mumbled, her head currently laying against my chest.

"I love you more."

Reunited at last? That's for you to find out but anyways thanks for reading everyone. Technically the 1st chapter of Part 4 unless you want to count the prologue but I don't count the prologue as the first chapter but whatever.

And just an FYI, there are POVs now. Unlike the other parts this one will change in between the characters, such and such.

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