Dear diary: The end of the beginning (Book 2)

Chapter 12: Finally

Chapter 12

Katniss P.O.V.

I still feel sorry for Finnick. It's been a few hours since I saw him after lunch.

He stood up for me. Finnick. He stood up for me. Against Alexandra. He protected me and stood up for me. I've gotten a whole new perspective of people. I mean I'd already forgiven Finnick and the other boys but maybe I just kept thinking that it was all an act. That they would become like they were. But when Finnick stood up for me I realized that they couldn't become like they were because they were never bad guys or mean, they just pretended to be so they could keep Glimmer calm.

Suddenly I see Finnick sitting alone on a bench. He's crying. I look around to see if the guys are anywhere close, but I can't see them. I can't just leave Finnick alone crying, it's breaking my heart.

I hurry up to Finnick. He doesn't even see me coming. He puts his face in his hands, still crying, I can hear his sobs as I get closer and closer.

Poor Finnick.

"Finnick", I say and sit down beside him. "What's wrong?"

He looks up at me. I dry his tears with my hand. God I hate see people I care about all sad and crying. I feel like crying.

Wait a minute. Do I care about Finnick? Yes, yes I do. I actually do. I feel like he's my friend, and I care about my friends.

"Katniss", he says. "I'm so sorry".

I laugh. "Are you actually apologizing for crying?"

He shakes his head. "Not really, for the way I behaved towards you in high school", he says. "And and just that, I'm also crying because I feel so lousy, I've sabotaged for myself".

"What do you mean?" I ask feeling confused.

"I'm in love with Annie", he says and I rise my eyebrows. "On some level I've always known I'm in love with her, but I kept ignoring her in school and I let Glimmer make fun of her, not on the same level as she did to you but still, I'm a horrible person and I can't forgive myself, for any of it, I just can't. I know what you told me before lunch, but I just can't think or believe that she would feel the same way".

I feel for him. I really do. He's emotions are so real. There's nothing fake about this. I try to keep my own tears inside.

"Finnick listen to me, you're not a horrible person just because you made a few bad choices, okay, a few bad choices doesn't define who we are", I tell him. "What matters is what we do with the outcome, you realized it was stupid, you realized what you did was wrong, and now you're trying to do better and make up for it, that's what defines you as a person, and I can see who you are". Finnicks looking at me. Taking in every word. "You are kind and warm-hearted, you care about your friends, and even though you don't really want to admit it, you are quite sensitive, which is so great. Finnick you are good, okay? You are a good person and you will do a lot of good things in your life, but you've got to let go of the past, that's something I've had a hard time learning, but you've actually helped me to do that", I say and take his hand. "And for the record, Annie is in love with you too, but you can't tell her I told you that, okay? She doesn't care about what you did or didn't do in high school or what girls you've been with, she only sees you, and she only cares about you, she always has, probably always will".

Finnick smiles. "You know what? I've got two brothers, but if I'd had a sister, I would want her to be exactly like you", he says. "Because you're awesome, and you make everyone around you feel better".

"Well who says I can't be your sister?" I ask and bump his shoulder.

Finnick laughs. "I would be honored", he says. "Sister".

"Me too, big brother", Finnick is two months older than me.

He hugs me and I hug him back. I'm glad that he's feeling better.

I see the others walk towards us. But I continue hugging Finnick. He needs this hug, and so do I. We've just become brother and sister.

When we part Finnick notices the others. They're watching us.

I stand up. "For every bodies information, Finnick and I have now become brother and sister", I say and Finnick laughs.

"That's right", he says.

The others looks amused. Well everyone except for Annie. She's studying Finnick closely. She sees that he's been crying. His eyes are red and puffy and his cheeks are flushed.

"Have you been crying?" She asks looking at Finnick.

He doesn't say anything, he just nods.

"I found him on the bench alone, I could t just walk by", I say. "It was so heartbreaking".

Annie immediately looks sad. "Why were you crying?"

He stands up. "Because, I felt like a horrible person".

"You're not a horrible person, you are smart and funny and so handsome and..." What Annie was about to say next, will remind a mystery for all eternity, because Finnick kisses her and Annie's words dies out.

Annie kisses him back and puts her hands on his neck. I start smiling like a dork and feel like jumping up and down. I run a few steps and hugs Madge and Clay. Everyone's smiling. This is the what we've been waiting for.

I feel so happy right now. And I don't want to conceal my feelings. I'm allowed to feel happy and I'm allowed to show the world that I'm happy.

I look at Peeta. He looks at me. I smile at him  and he smiles back at me. I reach out my hand to him. He takes it and squeezes it.

Right now everything feels good. I hope it can stay like this.

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