Jay Mcguiness My Angel | Jaythan Au

Chapter 14

It was Monday, that meant back at school for more exams. We only had another two months and then I can finally leave school. After the almost kiss, on Saturday me or jay never said anything about it, although I really really wanted to. I wanted to question him, I wanted to know was he going to kiss me but I knew if I asked him, then things would of become awkward it was best to say nothing at all even though I had millions of questions that I wanted, needed to be answered but I kept quiet.

To be honest, I'm quite glad we didn't kiss. Yeah I really wanted us to kiss, and I may or may not of had naughty dreams - fantasies - of us kissing but I was afraid that Lauren would find out and I would be accused of being a home wrecker, even if Jay had initiated the kiss I would of been in the wrong because I'm still new here and nobody knows a whole lot about except Tom.

When lunch rolled around I sat happily at our table and chewed on my sandwich that I had made beforehand at home. I was sat next to Siva, listening to him talking about Ireland. He spoke in a proud manor when he was telling me all about his home country. Ireland sounding quite like gloucester with all the greenery and small towns but there was some differences. Tom and Max were sat opposite us talking about the football game that was on last night, I would usually join in the conversation but I was to engrossed in the conversation I had with Siva.

Lauren payed no attention to Jay at all, she was just texting someone on her phone and every time she received a text back she would smile. Which kind of made me wonder was she loyal to Jay? Or was she playing him. I hoped to god that she wasn't playing him because Jay deserved to be happy although I also hoped that she was cheating on him - as terrible as it sounds - and then he would come crying to me, and we would end up together and we would live happily ever after but I knew that wouldn't happen, it only happens in those cliché romance films.

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Dear Mum and Jess,

Sorry I haven't wrote to you in a while, I've been busy but I'll fill you in on what has happened since I haven't written to you.

So the other boys have finally forgiven Jay and there is no longer that awkward atmosphere that was there when they first forgave him - thankfully - I've done my science and history exams and I've got another 8 to do before I can leave school and do whatever I wanted; and that was music.

Max threw another party on Saturday which I didn't go to, I ended up spending it with Jay after he somehow found out about my scars and I told him about the story of your death and also why I do this to myself. I promised him that I would never do that again and so far I've kept to that promise but I'm worried that I will end up breaking it 'cause promises are meant to be broken, right? Also that night, I had no nightmares because he was there. Lying next to me with his arms around me it was like he protected me from the nightmares like he made then go away. Also I forgot to mention that he leaned down, like he was going to kiss me but the doorbell rang before we ever did and we spoke no more of it. Maybe it was a mistake, maybe I had something on my face and he was leaning in to get a closer look at it.

I really must go, Noreen is calling me down for tea. I promise I will write again as soon as I can.

Nathan xx

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A/N: *hides in a corner cringing* I'm sorry how rubbish this chapter was I've had stuff going on at home and I've just not had a lot of motivation to be writing so its affected this quite a lot. I'm sure that the next chapter won't be as bad I hope I'd re write it but I'm lazy and I'm really tired. I'm not sure when I will update next but hopefully as soon as I can.

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