Jay Mcguiness My Angel | Jaythan Au

Chapter 19

It has been two nights of having little to no sleep. I hadn't been to Jay's since we kissed and I've been avoiding him at school, I just didn't want him to tell me that the kiss was just out of pity. Even though I knew that myself anyway if he told me to my face I'd probably have a breakdown right in front of him and I didn't want that to happen.

When I woke up at twenty past three in the morning after having another nightmare I decided enough was enough and after to days of being AWOL I found myself outside Jay's front door. As soon as I knocked on the door, the door flew upon and there stood a wide eyed, red cheeked Jay.

"Nathan!" He squeaked, pulling me into a bone crushing hug. "Oh, Nathan I thought you hated me for kissing you. I've not seen you at school and you've had me awake those two nights wondering if you ever was going to come here again. I'm so glad you did Nath, I missed you." He continued, still holding me in that bone crushing hug. He thought I hated him? How could I even possibly hate someone like Jay? He was just too loveable and cute to be hated and he also said he missed me, did he really mean it or was it him just saying it to make me feel like someone in this world actually cared for me.

"I missed you too, Jay." Which was true, I had missed seeing him and spending time with him. "Now can you let go, I can't breathe"

"Oh, sorry." He blushed and fortunately he let me go and I could finally breathe again. "C'mon in" he opened the door wider and stepped to the left so I could get in. Once I was inside he shut the door behind me and he motioned for me to follow him into the kitchen which I did.

"So how come you've been avoiding me these past two days?" Uh oh. The question I had been dreading he asked me. I couldn't really tell him why though could I? Of course not Nathan, don't b stupid. I internally groaned and tried to think of something to say that was believable.

"Oh ehh, well I haven't been avoiding you it's just that-"

"Oh god, it's nearly four in the morning. We have to be up in three hours forget about your story you can tell me another time" he cut me off. I was thankful that he did so I didn't have to explain myself although he did say that I had to tell him another time and I hoped that it wasn't some time soon and he would forget all about it.

I climbed into Jay's bed and he immediately wrapped his arm around me, pulling me closer to him. I had my head on his chest and my left arm wrapped around his waist. I missed being this close to him.

"Close your eyes and think of something nice" was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.

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~ Jay ~

It was Saturday and Max was throwing another party and the whole school except some of the goody two shoes that stayed at home because they didn't like drinking illegally. When I arrived I could hear the music and bass pulsing from outside. It was a typical looking house party; teenagers throwing up in the front garden and sweaty drunken bodies dancing close together, and all I wanted was to get inside. I walked into the kitchen where the drinks usually were always located. I grabbed the first thing I could find and downed it, it burned my throat but I didn't mind. It was a good feeling.

After I drank a little more I stumbled into the living room, all the furniture had been pushed to the side and people were dancing to the almost deafening music. I felt like I was in some type of club. I squeezed my way between the dancing bodies and started moving with them. Soon enough I felt some guys crotch up against my arse and I just went with it, I grinded back into his hips and I felt his arms wrap around my waist to pull me closer. I ended up breaking up with Lauren and tonight I wanted to get drunk and forget all about her.