february 21 7:12 am
dear cameron,
it took you days to realize you were destroying the mind of a guy who was down for you. I'm paying for it right now to this day. becoming more mature, you see everything you put me through. you made me more guarded, scarred, and basically I'm afraid to love. you changed me unintentionally. I can see it in my eyes when I cry and my actions. I'm not what I was anymore because of you. it finally hit you in these last days about what you've done. and ask yourself this. why do that to a person that did nothing but love you? why take advantage of me and crush me mentally? why not consider my feelings? why was everything about what you wanted? and when you do finally realize that it's all too late. I'm already accustomed to pain, I don't cry at the same things anymore. I don't smile like I did. I don't see you as my protector anymore. you crushed me as an individual honestly.
love, shawn mendes.
