August 17, 5:57 pm
dear cameron,
I was not an easy person to love. Some days i would whisper how beautiful you were while planting kisses all over your body, you would giggle and try to fight me off and in that moment my heart will never have felt as light.
But other days, when my mind was a storm cloud threatening to explode, I was a bundle of emotions that I couldn't keep contained. I was cold, distant and you wouldn't look at me like I was the same person you fell in love with.
I am a broken light switch. My moods would flicker without anybody flipping me on and off. I woke up each morning and wondered which me you would encounter that day. Id ways hope it was the one that made you want to stick around.
I was not easy to love. But what I wanted you to understand was whether there was war inside my head or I was the kind of person you adore, I would've always loved you. I would've loved you in the morning. I would've loved you when you cried. I would've loved you when I was angry. I would've loved you when you were stubborn. I would've love you when I didn't even love myself. I would've always loved you.
I know that there were days when you wanted to give up on me, but I was always asking you, please don't. You see, you were the only one who were able to settle the storm inside of me before I even realized it was surfacing.
I was not easy to love but I promised I would always put up a fight. And I would've loved you no matter which me my light switch flipped on that day.
but you left,
shawn mendes.
